Living for a new tomorrow.

One More Moment

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Been listening to iTunes these past few hours. Really blessed by all the wonderful music that people has composed. It’s really nice and simply healing to my soul

Today want to share this particular song. Is ‘One More Moment’ sung by Sun.

Don't take too long to say
I love you to the ones you love
Cause time has a habit of slipping away

And out on the clear blue sky
When lightning strikes on a sunny day
Just take me in and keep me from the rain

And the words that seem so hard to say
Come out when you've gone away
Just stay a little while and hear me say

That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment with you

Turn away to say goodbye
With each and every word that passes by
Like a distant memory

And time keeps slipping away
And time will turn to grey
And time will be the one who holds you down

And the words that seem so hard to say
Come out when you've gone away
Just stay a little while and hear me say

Sometimes time will treat you bad
Before you even know what's wrong
And in the end it hits you hard
Please tell me you'll be strong

Sometimes is really true that time really has a habit of slipping away. Before you know it, many years has passed. For me, there are so many things that I have not done. But time is going at accelerating speed. So many things that I wish I could do better, so many things that I wish I could have done earlier.

Registered myself for Uni application, realized that my ‘A’ is really not a lot. How I wish I can go back in time to study harder. Anyway, I believe that somehow, God will make a way for me.

But I thank God that he placed me in SP to take up business admin course, I never regretted this decision. It’s really life-enriching. It gives me courage to venture out in the marketplace. And also trains me to think of different ways to solve the problem.

Also want to thank God that he placed me in Xerox also. Although I complained so much here, but I truly want to thank God for this arrangement. Cause through this job, I become someone that are able to work faster and are able to take more mental stress. Still could remember when I just started dispatching, I really cannot take the stress after work. Remember there are many times almost broke down. But now, after few months of training and officially taking care of North board, I feel that I am able to cope much better. Although still stressful, but I am able to finish the work in time and are able to have more time to interact with colleagues also.

And before I work there, really have no idea what’s working is really like. Through this company, I learnt a lot. Both good and bad things. Good things are like able to speak more professionally, bad things are like methods to deal with lulu. Although it sounds weird, but it’s really a essential skill to be learnt in order to survive in the office.

Time really pass by very fast. Few more months my contract will end. I really don’t know what changes will take place in these few months. Felt that this year, a lot of changes will take place in my life. Part of me is looking forward to see what will happen, part of me hope that the changes will be minimized.

Really love this song a lot. Really inspire me to treasure life more. So many times I simply passing through life, and I forgot to stop and enjoy what God has blessed me with. How beautiful are God’s creation, really love the creativity of God. How awesome is this place that He has placed me in.

Thank You Jesus for so many things You’ve done in my life. Really thank You that because of You, my life’s changed.

&lovin' Bb at 1:56 AM♥

MC for two days.

Monday, February 26, 2007

Woohoo! MC today again. Today that doctor really like to scare her patients. This doctor is really different from the rest of the doctors that I’ve seen in that Medical Group. She’s exceptionally detailed and careful in treating every patients. She’s really very nice. But the problem is that she really gave me a scare today.

When I taking the temperature, she checked my lungs, and also neck. Then she keep feeling the left side of my neck, then she said there is something there. Then she ask me whether is this ‘thing’ new. I told her don’t know. Cause it feels alright to me. Then after that she thought for a moment, then she said think is a thicker muscle, not much issue.

Then second thing, she said the symptoms that I have is similar to diabetes. She really gave me another shock. Then she said she want to test my blood. Then after the test, she said don’t have diabetes at all, no issue.

Wah.. If every doctor that I went keep telling me all these, I think I am going to get heart attack soon.

She also said that if the problem still persist on Wednesday and Thursday, must go back and fix another appointment with her.

Although she really shocked me today, but her service is much better than the one near my house. That doctor that is near my house is super irritating, not helpful at all. I told him whatever symptoms I have, then he immediately gave me medicine that will so call heal those symptoms.

But I think he is not good at all. Cause give medicine according to symptoms, then everyone could be doctor. I also can be doctor. Is so easy. I just need to ask patients what symptoms they have and I give medicine accordingly. So easy.

Think next time I will go to the outlet that is near office, if not I will go to Tampines that outlet. I will avoid the one that is near my house, I simply don’t like that doctor.

Then just now after doctor, I went back to office and inform my colleagues I got one and a half day MC and also tell them how that doctor scares me. Joey said the doctor also said the same thing to Jasmine. Jasmine said the doctor told her left neck also got something, and there is some white spots on it. Sounds scary. Then today north board also got a few MC. Then when I am leaving the office, Joey told me Latip has the exact same issue as me. Also have virus infection, also MC two days. Then she said whether I got meet him, why we two have same thing. Haha.. Funny huh, never seen that engineer for at least a month. Really very coincidental.

Then lulu, as usual, nag again. Just now went I tell her I want to see doctor. She said in a very sarcastic tone, ‘why? Doctor not sick what?’ super lame. Then I told her, ’ya, I know doctor not sick, but I sick’ really very irritated, wanted to tell her don’t be lame. But cannot la.. She’s the manager, she biggest at that point of time. Then she nag at the same old thing again la, said things like why so young so many problems?

Duh.. Young also human k? anyway I have already learnt the art of one ear in, one ear out. So it’s okay. As long as I can go see doctor can already.

Then after that when I pass my MC to her, she said why so many days? Then she nag at the same old thing again. I just listen loh, anyway I got MC already, now I bigger. Haha..

Then when I was on the way to MRT, Cas message me, she said don’t need to listen to all lulu’s nagging. Don’t need to care about her.

&lovin' Bb at 8:57 PM♥

New Skates!

Saturday, February 24, 2007

Yesterday’s calls not a lot, but as compared to last few days, there is a significant increase. Cas said Monday sure very black for us. I really don’t wish black Monday to happen again. Today I was late for work. Oh man, reached at 0904hrs today. Supposed to be in office by 0830hrs-cause work start at 0845hrs. Took cab again. And today I was really very angry, cause got one person snatched my cab.

I waited for about 5 mins, then one lady just stood in front of me, and in less than a minute, a taxi came. Then after that I waited for another 10mins for the next cab to come. So irritating.

Although my colleagues say it’s okay, but I still find uneasy. Cause it’s always not nice to be late for work you know.

Anyway, Saturday not a lot of calls also. Then I spent quite some time to blog.

After that met Kel at Suntec. He said Suntec Carrefour got promo for inline skates. Went there and got one. It’s so nice!!! Really loved it. But really got serious problem in ‘conquering’ that pair of skates. I brought the skates back, Pui say she want to learn also. And she tried it at home. And was really amazed that she can walk around in the house. Haha..

Wanted to write some more, but really tired sia.. Eyes half closing already. :D

&lovin' Bb at 12:40 PM♥

OMG!! i can access from office.. Shh..

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

OMG! Today I’m seriously too bored in office. Not a lot of calls. And I finish up all my work long ago. This is the very first time I slack in my office. Really is a good day to remember.

And that time the IT department blocked many website for access. So today cas, nuraini, lin and I tried to see what are the pages I can access to. And I’m super happy that I can blog here. Haha..

Really is a good day to remember.

&lovin' Bb at 5:53 PM♥

陳奕迅 - 明年今日

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Been listening to Eason Chan’s (陳奕迅) song these few days. Really fell in love with all his songs. Especially the love songs he sung in Cantonese. Really highly recommended. One of the example is:

明年今日

曲：陳小霞詞：林夕編曲/監製：陳輝陽

若這一束吊燈傾瀉下來或者我已不會存在

即使你不愛亦不需要分開

若這一刻我竟嚴重痴呆跟本不需要被愛

永遠在床上發夢餘生都不會再悲哀

#人總需要勇敢生存我還是重新許願

例如學會承受失戀

明年今日別要再失眠床褥都改變如果有幸會面

或在同伴新婚的盛宴惶惑地等待你出現

明年今日未見你一年誰捨得改變離開你六十年

但願能認得出你的子女臨別亦聽得到你講再見

Repeat #

在有生的瞬間能遇到你竟花光所有運氣

到這日才發現曾呼吸過空氣

This song is in Cantonese. The song is about someone lost his love. He still misses the person a lot. The end of the song said that he’s thankful that he’s able to meet his love. Although they never have a happy ending and it only last for a short while, but all the memories with his love will always be with him.

I really love songs that has nice lyrics. Many times I can listen to songs and cry. Sounds real lousy right? Haha..

The story of this song really touched my heart. Although this song is not speaking to me personally, but imagine someone going through all these in real life, oh man… heart pain.

To all who just lost your love: don’t be sad, there are many reasons of breaking up, but I believe that somehow, there will be a better person out there for you. Someone that you can truly love with all your heart and that someone will also love you back in the same measure. Like what the song said, be brave to live and move on.

&lovin' Bb at 11:09 PM♥

Jesus, don't pass me by

PLANETSHAKERS - DON’T PASS ME BY

My heart it longs
My soul it thirsts for more
For more of You

I'm reaching out
I'm waiting here for more
For more of You

Cause all
I want is You
And all I need
Is to be here with You

I'm hungry
For Your fire
I'm desperate
You're my one desire
Jesus
Please don't pass me by

Cause I need You
More than ever
I'm thirsty
For a touch from heaven
Jesus
Please don't pass me by

Don't pass me by
I'm desperate for You

Jesus, Jesus, don’t pass me by. I want to complete whatever You’ve planned for me to do on this earth, in this lifetime. I don’t want to be those that will fall back and quit halfway. Lord I need more of You, more of Your presence, wisdom, anointing and power.

So many things in life I need to decide. Lord, please give me Your wisdom, so that I will take the right path in life. Let Your will be done. I know that You have planned everything beautiful in it’s time, Lord I trust in You that everything will turn out well for me.

Lord, thank You for all the things You’ve blessed me in my life. I’m thankful that I’m saved. Jesus, I love You always.

Sometimes, I felt like I’m in the middle of desert, lost in direction, dried up on the inside. But Lord You always come in the right time and gave me renewed vision to go after once again. You know my flaws, You know my weaknesses, but You never ever given up hope on me. When I fall, You always there to pick me up. Sorry for all the mistakes that I’ve done. Lord, Thank You for Your unfailing love.

Love You, Jesus.

&lovin' Bb at 10:30 PM♥

Singapore Zoo

Monday, February 19, 2007

Yesterday is the very first day of Chinese new year. My family, as usual, will go on a annual family outing on this day. We don’t do home visitation during Chinese new year, cause don’t have much relatives on Singapore. It’s always been like this.

Of all places, this year we chose a very exciting place to go: Singapore ZOO! It’s been at least a year since I last went. Still remembered the last time I went, I went with my poly classmates.

The animals are SO CUTE and ADORABLE!! There are so many different kind of animals. Maybe is pig year, found a lot of pigs in the zoo. And they are very ugly and smelly. Eww..

We just got in, and it rains… very heavy rain. We took shelter at the snake’s den.. Haha.. Taking shelter with the MOST poisonous snake in the whole world. The description said 0.11g of the poison are enough to kill 100 human. OMG!! Shocked.

We decided to walk in the rain. We also saw many other cute animals and plants. Really had a great time with my family. But I’m real tired sia.. Need to walk such long distances. And my mum insist to go and look at the kangaroo one more time before leaving. She’s real funny.

Super tired after that trip. After reach home, slept for 30 mins, ate dinner, played maple, then go watch movie; Just Follow Law.

The movie is nice. Many parts really show what happen in a company. I also need to CC a lot of people when I email. Haha.. Sounds real familiar to me…

Really enjoyed the movie, it ended at 2.. So late la.. Haha..

&lovin' Bb at 3:05 PM♥

Thailand Trip part 2

Friday, February 16, 2007

Just came back from Thailand. The trip was AWESOME! I really loved the fellowship with all my beloved cg members..

They are really cool!! We went shopping together, eat together by the road side,

sleep in the same room (girls only), explore unknown places together.. It’s really fun to be with them.

Anyway where the story stops? Oh.. Haha.. After that, we decided to go out and explore. Jen, Jessie, Kel and me went together. When we are out of the hotel, got one persistant tuk tuk driver keep insisting to show us some nice place nearby. He offer to bring us there with just 20 baht. We rejected the offer, cause we just want to walk around. But after 5 mins walk, we saw that same driver standing in front of us, waiting for us. He asked the same questions again, and this time he offered just 5 baht. Haha.. Is so so cheap. Since he really insisted, we hop onto his tuk tuk. He said he supposed to head home, but he saw us walking along the streets, so he decided to stop and offered to give us a ride. It’s really exciting, and he said that place is really cheap and nice. He brought us to a restaurant and dropped us there. We went in. it’s a seafood restaurant. The food there is super ex la!!! That tuk tuk driver bluff us, cheat us here. The price is equivalent to Singapore’s seafood restaurant. Imagine, 300 baht (about 13 Singapore dollars) for a place of oyster fried egg. We can get at least 10 of them along the streets. And that’s exclusive of the various prevailing charges. We decided to walk out of the restaurant. Although feels a bit embarrassed, but for the sake of our wallets, we walk out. We went back to our hotel area, went to a mini bar and chill for a while.

Ordered coke, fries, and we played pool. The bar is quite small, the pool table area doesn’t have a lot of space. Some places are blocked by walls and pillars, it’s impossible (for me) to play. And one thing real interesting is that they provided a miniature pool stick ( don’t know what’s the term to describe that),

it’s for you to use if you are blocked by pillar or walls, can use that to play.

After that, we went back to hotel.

The 3rd day.. We went to a place that look like bugis street.. Got those small shops selling a great variety of items.. And their operating hours are similar to bugis street as well, they open late.. We decided to go back MBK first, then late afternoon then go back to that place (siam square).

We went to MBK, then we split into groups again. Kel, Jen and me in one group. We really shop like never shop before.. Bought quite a number of stuff for our own friends and family members. Cause we do not have handphone, then we really have difficulty contacting the rest. We supposed to meet 4pm at swensen’s, but didn’t managed to see them there. We met them at siam paragon instead. By the time we reached there, they already finish eating, and they want to go back to hotel.

We stayed back and share a meal together. Then we went back to siam square to shop. When we still at siam paragon, we saw something really cool. I saw 3D TV!! OMG! Never seen that ever in my life, I really felt I’m like a country bumpkin. On the outside, it look just like a normal plasma TV set. Initially we didn’t really notice the difference, I find the screen is quite blur at first glance. After that then we realized that it’s a 3D TV. Even the advertisements are so interesting. Haha.. Really amazed. Next time I also want to own one.. Haha..

We shop for a short while at siam square, saw quite a few items that’s super nice, but didn’t buy, cause it’s really expensive. Got one black cross necklace, it’s really very pretty, but cost about 20plus Singapore dollars, so expensive!! It’s okay, next time more money can buy more.

We reached hotel quite early, wash up and we just fellowship in the room. After that we went to another road side stall to have dinner together.

The food is super duper spicy, I almost cried while eating (I’m serious! The food there is really spicy, drank a lot of water for that meal alone).

But the food taste nice. I don’t dare to try that tom yum. Cause I know it’s gonna be super hot!

After dinner, we head back to hotel, bought 2 pairs of bikenstock sandals from one of the roadside stall owner.

I went wash up first, after that, valor say he gonna speak to all of us personally. The girls went down to buy more souvenirs while I went to bathe. After that, I went to guy’s room, Jeremy and valor is there. Valor talked to me in regards to quite a number of issue. One of them is about my career path. I told him I wanna go back and study design. Next time, where it be going to work in design firm, or start a business, it’s going to be very useful.

After that, Kel came back from internet café, and the conversation ended. I went back to my own room.

I took a short nap. Had a mini Valentine’s Day celebration by eating all the junk food together. then after that we watched a real stupid show together. The story is about some weird monsters that dresses up like clowns. And they keep on killing people. And the most scary part is not the movie, the most scary part are the sudden scream from Kel. Super irritated, shocked by him quite a number of times. Argh. After movie, we decided to rest. I am done with the packing quite early. I went to sleep first.

Next morning, time really flies, it’s the last day in Thailand. We went back to platinum. We finally managed to take a HOT PINK TAXI!!

Haha.. So exciting, anyway bought quite a lot of items over there. Bought some new tops and food stuff. Went back to hotel and we head back to airport.

It’s really a nice trip. Totally enjoyed it. On the plane, we saw the bird eye view of the Singapore night sky. It’s so beautiful. Really mesmerized by it.

We reached airport at around 8.30pm. After that everyone head home, left with Kel, Jen and me. We went back to terminal 2 to eat mac. After that we took bus back home.

&lovin' Bb at 1:54 AM♥

Thailand Trip part one

Monday, February 12, 2007

hello guys.. greetings from thailand!! haha.. yesterday noon time touched down. every moment never fail to amaze me.. its the first time i been to a country that i totally don't understand their language... and it's really difficult to stay here.. cause really don't understand what they talking about. and everytime need valor to be the mouth piece and translator.

first experience in bangkok is that everything is so huge.. and dusty.. and on the way to hotel, i saw something really amazing. i saw PINK TAXI!!!! those HOT PINK. wow.. is awesome.. never seen such cute taxi before. then besides pink.. there are also many colours.. haha.. it's really fun..

anyway.. the hotel we stayed is really nice. better that what i expected actually.. kaili, jessie, jen and me stayed in the same room. and jem, kel and valor stayed in another. hee.. first day, we went to MBK shopping centre to shop. the food there is nice.. but i totally don't know how to order. so i end up getting something that has eng translation. i got beef soup. is really nice. the mean is tender and.. woah.. never had that in singapore.. haha..

the shopping centre here is super huge.. alot of shops.. really can get lost in all those shopping centres. went to do treatment there.. hee.. feel my hair is really dry.. and since the treatment plus cut is only 800 bath. is really very cheap. haha.. so i decided to do it. the effect is nice.. after that really felt my hair smoother. jennifer and kaili dyed their hair.. the colour is really nice.. and kel also went to cut his hair.. haha.. all have new hairstyle in thailand. didnt buy anything from that shopping centre. cause the price is kinda steep. is almost the same price as compared to singapore.

after that, we went back to our hotel area. first night we didn't do much really. dinner we ate food from road side stalls and we went back 'home'. the rest all slept early. kaili and i went to the restaurant at the hotel lobby to buy some supper. hee.. the tomato soup is nice. initially we wanted mushroom cream soup. then they say don't have.. then we chose corn, then after order they come back and told us that they realised that they don't have too. so we chose our last option - tomato soup. and to our surprise.. is really very nice.. talked many things with kaili.. haha.. really had a great time with her that night.

anyway.. 2nd day.. we went to platinum shopping centre.. is where all the wholesellers gathered. the shops there.. the merchandise, as compared to china, is of a higher quality.. but as for the design, there are only selective shops that has really nice clothes.

didnt buy alot today. only a few tops.. didn't manage to buy any bottoms.. cause cannot try de.. sian.. don't know what to buy back for all my friends and relatives.. there are so many of them.. haha.. don't know what to buy. ..

more luck tomorrow i hope... haha..

&lovin' Bb at 7:46 PM♥

updates of the week

Friday, February 09, 2007

It’s been quite a number of days since I last blogged. Just a short update. Last week, think is Wednesday or Thursday, I had a fall on my way to go lunch. Woohoo! Got big blue-blacks on both knees. Exciting. Until now the blue-blacks still very visible.

On that weekend, is pastor Ulf conference. On Friday, pastor Ulf talked about the blessing of God. It really blow my mind. Although this topic on blessing has been preached many many times, but this sermon really ministered my heart that day.

On Saturday, had the opportunity to serve in choir. And we need to sit on stage. Pastor preached about the heart for mission. God always been placing China deeply in my heart. But that day, that desire for mission in China came alive once again. Presence of God was so strong at that time. And I saw a vision that day; I saw arrows that’s from Singapore and travel to some distinct parts of China, mainly as the coastal areas. Then the number and the frequency of arrows increases as times goes by. The territories that the arrow reached increase tremendously also. After that, everything just turn white, just like a big flash light that cover everything that’s visible.

And pastor also prayed for the choir. When pastor walked over to the choir, I felt that there is someone that stepped close to me that is beyond my comfortable distance. But I’m standing at the last row of choir stage, I really felt that. Presence of God is really very strong. I fell under the power of God. But being in the last row is really quite bad. Cause got two choir members fell on me. One of them literally sat on my leg. And my left thigh got one blue-black. Really very painful. And I can’t get up unless they get up first. But overall, I really enjoyed the service, really felt privilege to be on choir duty that day.

Sunday svc, pastor talked about the Holy Spirit and the unity of the body of Christ. It really blesses me greatly. Then after that, went to have lunch with cell group members. Then Si Kai, Ling Ling and me went to east coast to roller blade. Think Si Kai is the most skilled among the 3 of us. At least he know how to turn around and stop. I totally forgot how to turn, haha… and poor Ling, she fell many many times, and I felt so sorry that I can’t help her at all. But thank God that I didn’t fall. hee.. Opps..

Anyway after that Kel came too, his ankle injured, then he can’t play. After playing, we went to take bus back to tampines. Si Kai head home after that, Kel head to his friend’s house have dinner, ling and I stayed back and fellowship. Talked about quite a lot of things. You know, girl’s talk. Haha..

Oh man, then now Monday came, work again. So tired of working, but still must go to work. From Monday till Thursday the calls are super bad. On Wednesday, the calls are the worst. During 10am on Wednesday, the outstanding calls has already reached 40. That’s a lot! Then that day the highest outstanding at one time is 48. I almost fainted. And I not sure just nice that day the engineer’s manager is on leave. Oh man, he really know how to choose a day to be on leave. Really very stressed that day, especially after lunch, cause the outstanding is still so high, and the day is ending soon. Really don’t know how to clear the calls. Went to toilet to have a break, message some friends to de-stress. If I continue to sit there, I think I will really cry. But thank God that day not much really very urgent calls. Managed to push quite a number of calls till the next day. Then today’s call also quite bad. And when I see the calls keep increasing, I laughed. Think I really too stress, going crazy soon. Haha..

Today during lunch, roxie talked to cas and me. She shared to us that she really tried very hard to try to help us. She said she went for many meetings and discussion, trying to find solutions to solve the problems our department faced. Hai.. can’t even enjoy my lunch. Haha.. Opps..

Don’t want to talk about work already. Anyway on Tuesday, Valor drive Jeremy, Kel and me back to woodlands with his car. Haha.. Really is an adventure back to woodlands. I told Valor that for experienced driver, only need 20 mins to travel from boon lay to woodlands. The first attempt was quite good, we took 40 mins to reach the destination. Haha.. Jeremy and Kel managed to catch the last bus back to their home after they reach woodlands.

On Wednesday after work, went to have bible study at river walk. After the bible study, Kaili, Ling, Jen and me stayed around Central to fellowship. We have our ladies night. Haha.. Went to star bucks to get ourselves a drink then we sat along Singapore River. Kaili and Jen talked about their own topic, while Ling and I talk about another. We really shared about quite a number of things.. Haha.. A continuation from Sunday’s. after that Kaili left early, then Jen join us with the conversation. Haha.. We really asked each other really difficult questions. But I think I need to answer the most number of difficult questions. Haha.. After that we went home. Then Jen shared with me her usher stories when we are on the way back. It’s really enjoyable. Haha..

Think that’s about all. Haha.. I need to quickly go to sleep, cause tomorrow I need to be in office by 7.45 actually, cause got MD comm again. Oh man, I really wonder whether I can wake up. Haha..

&lovin' Bb at 1:00 AM♥

Quitting

Friday, February 02, 2007

Today, another bad day also (since when I last had a good day anyway). Today lunch had a great chat with my colleagues. Ate with Jasmine, Alice and Flora today. We talked about email. Today I received an email to inform about a site survey for one of the XES machine. And after that pet email me and CC to the whole of my department, and remind me in regards to that site survey.

After that I ask Joey, how do I make arrangement for site survey? Never done before. Then she said, ‘site survey no need you to do mah..’ then I ask her how come pet forward me the email and remind me for my actions??

Then that pet said, ‘Florence ask me to remind you one,’ but there is nothing that I need to do.. Remind me for what? At most I can just say, ‘ok. Noted.’ real stupid.

Then during lunch, Jasmine also has the same problem. She receive emails to inform her about something, then she is supposed to reply, ‘ ok. Noted’ and CC to everyone in the department. I find that’s real stupid. Can’t the person just oracle messenger her directly? Why need to send the stupid email whereby there is a possibility of her missing that mail and others in the department no need to take note about this at all?

Then I heard Jasmine said Florence is the one that ask that person to email her and CC to the whole department. I find that it is REAL stupid. We spent time checking on tons of email that doesn’t concern our part of the job. And she is the one that always ask us to go check mail. Where got time?

Then Jasmine tried to fight back about this issue. Then during lunch, she said that she lost. She is supposed to reply that email and any other future emails, even if the reply is just , ‘ok. Noted.’

All of us really not happy with how she do things. We got so many things need to do. Need to listen to calls, dispatch, order toner, check emails, now still need to reply emails, update PE and IB. oh man.. One day, the emails can go up to a thousand. How to check every single one? And 90% are those stupid emails that concern only to certain people in the department.

Then Jasmine tell me to reply that particular email that pet sent to me. Is real stupid. But still need to reply.

After lunch, Stacey told me that I need to mark Anthony to have a joint call with Software Engineer Arthur. Then after that she commented she having headache.

- ‘oh no, have you taken medicine?’

‘no, feel like banging my head against the wall.’

After a while…

- ‘feeling better?’

‘not at all, the doc say I got headache is because of stress, I might have high blood also..’

- ‘high blood?! Must take care lei.. High blood might cause many problems in future..’

‘how to take care? Everyday work here, so many things to do. Really very stressed. And you know my size.. I am starting to worried.. And I also need to take care of both work and family, really cannot take it anymore.. ’

- ‘maybe find ways to distress, to relax your mind after work. Can catch a movie, or shopping.. Do anything that make you happy. Then you will feel better.’
‘you know what will really make me happy? The day when I don’t need to work here. Anyway sinman.. Thanks for your concern…’

My heart really drop. This place really drain all our energy away. Stacey is a mother of 2, currently taking care of Software board. Her board, in my opinion, is the most stressful board. Need to reply tons of emails, and sales people, customers, always chase her left right and center. And her engineers not really have enough. Outstanding calls is always super high… oh man.. Think I’ll die taking her board. Though I don’t really know her a lot, but she’s really a nice lady.. That conversation really impacted me quite a bit and I also start to worry bout her health.

After that she tell me she want to look for new job, been looking around, but no luck.

She’s not the only one that wants to change job.

Oh man, I wonder what will happen if all of us really want to quit. Like what Alice says, one day things sure blow up. Someone sure will shoot back and stand up for the rest.

I wonder when will that really happen.

Tomorrow will be a better day.

&lovin' Bb at 12:06 AM♥

Going Crazy soon

Thursday, February 01, 2007

Today really had a super bad day. I don’t know how come all the nasty customers called today. So many customers scolded me for no reasons. Oh man. Today’s call also quite bad, but there are slight improvements towards the end of the day.

Actually I quite liked taking North and XES board. Most of engineers are very nice. Today one of them told me he liked talking to me as compared to the previous dispatcher. He said I’m easier to talk to. It really warms my heart, despite all the nasty customers irritates you all the time. Those really nice engineers are willing to help you as much as possible. Like helping you to call customers to push the service appointments to next day, try to help phone support first, and also help to do OT. It’s easy to work with nice engineers.

But of course, there are some engineers that I don’t really like to talk to. Really gives me headache as those engineers gave me many attitude problems and are not willing to help at all. Today I almost quarreled with one of them.

Talking about quarrelling, today the sales people always come and disturb me. I shouted at one of them today, cause he keep on asking me the same question which I have already answered him long ago. He hogged onto my line for so long, keep on bugging me, asking me what time the particular engineer will be going down. I told him after the engineer finish his current call, will go down to his customer’s site to service the machine. Then he go ask me many stupid questions, he said ‘what time can he make it down? Just now spoke to your engineer already, he said you gave him another additional call. What time can he go down?’

I was really very irritated. That time I was very busy, (actually I am busy all the time) I got a lot of things to do. Really don’t have time and energy to entertain this kind of people. some more today’s call really very bad, he really chose the wrong day to irritate me. I blasted at him. I said, ‘I have told you many times already, after he finish the current call, he WILL go down and service your customer’s machine. As for the timing, how would I know? I am not the one who service machine. If you want to know, you can call my engineer to check right?’

After that, he sound real scared. He said, ‘okok, I’ll check with him, thanks.’

Anyway that particular engineer always give me a lot of problem also. This is the engineer that is always not willing, and always gives me attitude. Almost shouted at him also.

Besides engineers and customers, today the computer really very slow. Need to wait for almost one minute for it the un-hang when I am using the applications.

Especially after 5.30 to 6 pm today. Only 4 people working, then you can’t aux out, cause really very little people working that shift. But the call keep on coming in. I need to try ways to speak slow, and keep on asking customer questions, while waiting for it to un-hang. Really very irritated.

some more that time I need to do next days’ 1st call schedule. So many things I need to finish by 6. How to do? The computer is so slow. I thought today I can finish dispatching before 6, I end up after 6 then finish, cause waiting time really delayed my work.

How long more I need to bear with this? Oh man, it’s getting terrible. Just now after work, I felt that I really need to release all my stress, if not I can really go crazy. Walk around in far east plaza first, can’t concentrate at all. Cause my mind is really too stress, can’t have energy to enjoy. Really depressing at that time, really want to either shout or cry to release them all out, but there are so many people there. I kept my cool, swallowed everything down to my belly.

But now a lot better already. Really thank God that I am not in this battle alone. I have friends around me that really cared. Felt much better after today, felt that I have the energy to fight another day.

Tomorrow will be a better day.

&lovin' Bb at 1:35 AM♥

nonsense.