i'm in love
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
18 jan 2:15pm:
i'm in love, once again. with God. last few weekd, been quite dry in the spirit. been using my own strength to do things, to run on with my life. things doesn't seems to have a breakthrough. felt kinda frustrated with things, with myself, with God.
many times, really want to give up. really want to ..
this thinking been dwelling in my mind these past few weeks. been running on cause i don't want to lose the things that i have now. i know that if i give up, i'll regret forever. but it's only due to this negative feeling that i still hang on till now.
many times i cried out to God, asking for a breakthrough. things doesn't seems to improve. sometimes, there's a voice keep telling me that there is no God. but i know that in my heart, i know that this is definately not true.. but how come sometimes i'm affected by that statement?
but yesterday, it's really a turning point in my life. went for prayer meeting yesterday. been very blessed by all the prayer meeting i had over there. the presence of God was so strong.
yesterday, we prayed together as usual. pastor mentioned that today's prayer meeting will end earlier cause he need to talk to some of the leaders after the meeting.
so i didn't think much about it.. but little did i know that God has prepared something from me. he gave me a special gift, straight from heaven.
we're praying, as usual, then after a short prayer, we went back to worship. then pastor start to pray for all the people that are in the room.. the presence of God was so strong.. i was really ministered..
after so long, really felt a breakthrough in my spirit. that day, i felt the Lord telling me that,'I'm always here with you. I know your anxieties, I know your weakness. but I'm always with you. I will never leave you. I want to assure you that I'm real, I'm here to bless you. I'll never leave you alone...'
really felt His presence was so strong that day. felt His anointing just came and filled my whole being. felt like heaven's door was wide open for me. felt that i was not left out.. i am really somebody in the body of Christ.
after the whole prayer meeting, i was really refreshed and charged up.. really very happy that i came..
&lovin' Bb at 8:20 PM♥
strange thinking all of the sudden
17 jan 6:18pm:
suddenly felt very bored. tired of working the place that i'm working now. don't know why. felt so tired all of the sudden. today someone told me another outlet, staffwill get pay rise when they worked for quite sometime. but for here, i never received any pay rise. find it very sad and demoralizing. cause i've been working there for like 1 year plus, been more hardworking than most of the people there. and i got the same pay. many time my friends ask me to join other restuarant or other outlet, i stayed, i don't feel like leaving cause i felt the boss here is quite nice.
but after today, feel kinda cheated. hmmm... although it's not compulsory for pay rise, but i really find that they really lack the capability to contain loyal workers. no wonder so many staff left, one after another.
i told myself that if before i graduate i still couldn't get a pay rise or i couldn't see any efforts from the boss to make me stay. i'm definately leaving. humph..
&lovin' Bb at 8:04 PM♥
no more braces
Jan 6 12:30pm:
yeah.. finally .. finish my braces life. now i'm free. no more braces for me. feels kinda wierd though.. feels like my teeth was so bloated all of the sudden. those areas where my braces was on last time felt so smooth and slimy.. feels really very wierd. but i'm really happy.. hehe.. now my heart was pounding very fast.. really want to get used to my new look..
&lovin' Bb at 7:59 PM♥
Sorry.. i'm back
so sorry for didn't update my dear blog for quite some time.. i'm back.. been quite busy lately these few months..
business started and really have no time to didn't have a decent nap.. only today that i can sleep without the alarm clock waking me up. hai... after so many months of sufferings.. hehe..
and church has moved to expo last few months have those big chuch events.. been quite busy and stuff..
and my house internet's down.. can't able to access the net at home.. need to access it in school..
hmm.. will make it a point to update as much as possible ya..
keep on looking!
&lovin' Bb at 7:45 PM♥
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