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Thursday went to BBG with Bb. This coming Saturday I’ll be going for two weddings with Bb, so Sunday need to go make up svc and can’t go CG.

This is not the first time I went to BBG. When I reached there, there’s a buffet reception. I don’t feel like eating that time, so I ate a little only. A point of time I was thinking how can CG members be so free up to contribute to be able to have a buffet reception like this every single week. Was quite challenged, I want to be more financially freed up to do more things and be a blessing to those that are in need.

Eng Han and Paul preached for BBG. The sermon is about walking in confidence in God. I was blessed by the message. Many times I just feel that I’m not good enough to do big things for God. Personally, it’s a big mental hindrance in my life.

I was blessed by the sermon. Towards the end of the meeting, we’re praying and suddenly a business idea came into my mind. Told Bb after the session, I was feeling excited about it. I’m looking forward to the future and the same time enjoying my life now to the fullest.

Before the CG meeting start, Bb told me Christmas church will be having a bazaar selling things. That time as I was considering whether to take up a stall, my first thought is not whether I have the time to commit. The first thought that came is that I don’t think anyone will appreciate my work; don’t think anyone would want to buy. Remembered that time when I have the shop in bugis, not much appreciate my work. Many are not willing to pay more. They expect the pricing to be about the same as the rest of the shops that sells mass produced items. Many times was quite discouraged. Subconsciously, I allow this negative thinking to come into my soul. I start to think that my work won’t be appreciated; I can’t live a prosperous life by drawing.

Thinking through, I told Bb that I don’t want to join, no capital and don’t think have the time to do it.

After the CG meeting, felt that faith came into my heart once again. This gift that I have, it’s a God given gift, why should I feel that whatever God has placed in my hands will not prosper? Now, I just need to practice more, challenge myself every time to come out with better and more detailed designs.

Many are able to draw something, not a lot can make it in great details. I want to train myself to be able to be comfortable in drawing details. When I was in secondary school, Molly and I like to draw girls wearing many varieties of clothes. Molly’s design is very detailed in her design, mine was not so elaborate. That time I told myself I don’t think I can draw something like hers. Didn’t realize that since then, I caught myself in a box, I acted what I have believed in --- I can’t draw details.

I want to have a breakthrough in this area. I don’t think the talents that God gave are only this; I believe I can move even further. I got to keep challenge myself.

I don’t believe that whatever I draw don’t worth money. I don’t want to draw till no day no night and can’t earn much. I want to enjoy drawing; I don’t want to draw because I want to put food on the table. I don’t want to stay up overnight just to rush for orders. I am tired for that kind of life. I believe I can receive breakthrough.

After Thursday’s BBG, I start to believe God that I can succeed in this area in my life. Nothing is impossible, I need to tell myself to be confident to pick up my paint brush and start to draw something.

Decided to start to draw something for my friends and for myself. I don’t want to give myself a dateline on how much I need to draw within a month. I want to keep my heart relaxed and allow creativity flow through me. Rushing is the best way to destroy creativity. Remember that time T-Shirt and Jeans design, I spent days to done up the jeans. That’s the best that I’ve ever drawn as yet. Although I didn’t win, but I’ve learnt a lot. I’ve challenged myself and have moved on to the next level.

This will be a beginning of another chapter of my life --- preparing for starting a business in future. Decided that when I start this business again, I don’t want to compromise on my pricing anymore. This is all done by hands, if people want cheap stuff, can get from those shirt that use machines to print.

As I’m typing now, ideas keep flowing in… it’s very exciting! Hee.. :D

I missed the Christmas Tree at my house. Few years ago mum gave the Christmas Tree away to my aunt. Wanted to buy a new and big Christmas tree, but scared that mum will scold, cause no space to keep.

When I went to work on Thursday, Grace told me we need to have a quick lunch, cause after that we’re helping Samantha with the Christmas tree. Hee.. I’m so happy!

Company’s Christmas tree is huge! Taller than me.

It’s really fun~~ after that we took quite a number of pictures with the tree.. hee..

The next day we have a second round. Cause we find that the tree is big, and the present is too small. We wrapped a lot of bigger boxes. It look much nicer now.. :D hee… I love that Christmas Tree, makes me happy.. :D

Ella one day emailed me said that she has nominated me to go and have coffee talk with CEO. I was shocked! Talk with CEO??!?

Hooray~~ I got my confirmation letter at 12 November! I’m so happy. Was quite worried that my performance might not be up to their expectation. One of my lunch buddy told us that her probation was extended to 6months. Reason is because her performance is not good enough. But I personally felt that she’s a much better worker than the other new person in her department. She told us if she’s not confirmed after 6 months, she’s definitely leaving.

Then on Friday morning, Ella has a coffee talk with me at foodcourt downstairs. She said HR decides on whether to confirm or not. If HR did not receive any bad report on a particular employee, they will usually auto confirm.

Anyway I’m happy that I got confirmed. Felt much at ease. Told Bb first thing when I received the info.. hee..

When I got home I told my parents about it. First thing my parents ask is whether I have any increment. Haha.. They’re funnie..

Wanna thank God for the confirmation.. :D

Urgh.. Not feeling well yesterday.. Sad.. Reached home.. Eat porridge. After that sit in front of the com surf net for a short while. After that I want to go back to my room and study.. Next Monday another exam.. Haven’t start studying yet. Sob sob…

Tummy don’t feel alright lei.. sob sob.. It’s not painful, not itchy.. But feel kinda very irritated.. Mood not good because of that. Decided to sleep early. Feeling so terrible. Sleep at 10plus near 11pm, super early.

Today wake up not feeling good also, didn’t sleep well last nite.. Feeling tired today.. wanna sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.. yawn..

Wednesday went with Bb to celebrate Bb’s Mum birthday! Excited!! :D during lunch went to HMV to get her a gift. Ariel found this disc for me, it’s a Karaoke DVD. The song combination is quite good. It’s real cheap too! great deal!

After work went Takashimaya there to buy birthday cake. Bb says buy fruit cake.. remember Bengawan solo has a very nice looking fruit cake. So I went to basement two to buy that fruit cake. And the price is reasonable too! :D

After that went Outram Park look for Bb. When I reached, saw Bb's elder brother and Bb's mum. They were singing KTV over there. Bb’s family really love to sing.. haha.. full of feeling and sound nice too! I still scared of mic, feel weird when I can hear my own voice. Think female singer’s song is easier to sing.. Sang one Cantonese song. Hee.. Sound bad.. sob sob..

Sing till 8plus. Bb’s older bro, Bb’s mum, Bb and I left the KTV and went to a coffee shop nearby to meet Bb’s younger bro. we took train to Kallang.. Bb and family converse in Teo Chew.. Which I have no idea what they are talking about 99% of the time. Sob sob. Can’t even guess, it’s an alien language to me… Bb keep talking to them in Teo Chew.. don’t understand sia.. sob sob..

Anyway we went to Kallang eat bull frog porridge. Meet Bb’s older brother gf and Bb’s Dad there. We went to 2nd floor, it’s a air-conditioned room.. wah.. near the entrance no air-con one.. so stuffy.. after that we shift to the end of the room.. They order A LOT of food. Got about 7-8 dishes.. phew.. a very heavy dinner… enjoyed my dinner.. Bb look so cute when he ate the bitter gault. Hee...

After dinner, about 9.50pm, we took out e bdae cake and sing bdae song to Bb’s Mum.. Bb’s parents are so cute.. took a few pictures before we gobbled up the cake.. haha.. the cake’s nice.. orange flavor one.. don’t have room to eat more le.. shared the cake with Bb and the rest they bring home.

After that Bb’s older bro foot for the bill first. Total bill is about $190..

We reached downstairs, I pass Bb’s mum the present. Then Bb’s dad send me back home first before they all go home… :D

Reached home about 11pm. Enjoyed myself today… hee…

Yesterday after work, I rush home, have dinner, and start to study. Still have a lot of things don’t understand. Only 6 chapters, but I couldn’t understand at least half of it. Trying hard to understand as much as possible. No time to memorize. Thank God is open book. But I don’t think I will have the time to slowly flip through. At least better than no book to flip.

Called Bb about 10pm, feeling quite down, don’t understand what I’m studying now, everything can’t get in. feeling information overload already but still need to squeeze everything in. Bb asked me whether I got approach people for help. I did. But how much a can get help from? Bb asked about any CG people can help me. I said maybe Jia Hui can help, but I think it’s not a good idea. Firstly Jia Hui’s busy. And I suddenly ask questions, don’t think she’ll remember. Then Bb said I should have tried to ask at least.

I was feeling very stressed out, wanna cry already. I kept quiet. Bb said I got things didn’t tell him then we ended conversation shortly.

Give myself sometime to cool myself down and get myself back to study.

Study till about 11pm, already feeling very flat. But I haven’t read through theory. Just nice Bb called. I told him I still need to read through the theory then can sleep. Bb sound concern and ask me to sleep early, tomorrow then read. I insist need to at least read through once tonight.

I flip through the notes, did some highlighting. When I come to chapter 2 already feeling very sleepy, force myself to flip finish the whole book then can sleep.

Called Bb again after I finish everything. Feeling very very flat. Call ended very fast and I switch off my lights and prepared to sleep.

Within seconds, suddenly feeling very worried of the exams tomorrow. Feeling very fearful, suddenly don’t feel like going for the exams tomorrow. Felt so not prepared, no way I can score well for my exams. Can’t take e stress anymore, I cried.

I switch on the lights again and called Bb. I felt so low confidence of myself, felt myself so stupid that I can’t understand the course. I was thinking why in the first place I want to take up this course, it’s so difficult. Thinking that still got at least 3 semesters to go makes me cry even harder. Sob sob…

Then Bb prayed for me. Felt a lot better after that. :D Thanks Bb. Faith come back to me again. I know I can do well tomorrow. Need to keep myself calm.. if I really encounter things that I don’t know, just write whatever I know. Each mark is important.

Remember that time when I having my O levels, also encountered the same thing. Feeling so no confidence of myself, having a prelim results of L1R5 26 is not a good thing. 26 points can go no where. I don’t want that kind of results in my actual. That time I got one classmate got 15points for prelim, I prayed to God that I want to get 15 for L1R5. that time I was thinking how can I get that kind of results, no way I can do it. but I still ask for it anyway, and I trust God that He will be with me in the exam hall.

God answered my prayers, I really got L1R5 15 points for my actual. I was surprised and happy at the same time.

Yesterday night I remembered that, I believe that if God gave me a miracle when I’m 16, the next best thing that He could do is to repeat the miracle for me. I’m believing God that I can score well for this exams. :D I'm believing God for an A.. Hope it'll come to pass.. :D

Today we plan to have a mini celebration for Shi Ying’s birthday. Samantha bought the birthday cake for her. The celebration is at 3pm, Shi Ying have no idea that we’re planning all these.

We gathered at pantry at 3pm. Then when everyone’s ready, I went over to find Shi Ying. Didn’t bother to explain to her when I’m at her table, I just grab her hand and tell her something’s urgent.

We did it! She was surprised by this. hee… Aijia bought a cat wallet from Taiwan for her birthday. She liked it a lot. :D



It's successful birthday celebration

Hey hey~~ I just joined facebook! I was so overwhelmed by all the different applications that I can use to interact with my friends. First few days I spent quite a number of hours to check out the features.

Didn’t manage to scan through all the applications of course, no time.

There are some really fun applications, some so-so. Overall I liked it better than friendster. :D this is just a personal preference. :D

Blur blur me, I forgot to bring my handphone out to work. Somemore I only realized it when I’m going for lunch. OMG… what’s happening? Blur me.. Hopefully no one need to contact me urgently.

Feel so weird to spend a day without handphone with me, feel so out of touch with the world all of the sudden. And I have this desire to quickly go home to see my handphone. Hee..

I really wonder how I survived without handphone when I was younger. Haha….

Argh~~~ last few days been studying for exams. Feeling tired. Couldn’t concentrate well. Yesterday after CG, went to have lunch as a CG. After that Bb follow me home. I revise my work, then Bb watch TV at living room. He bought a Chinese TV series, cost about $20. start from 3pm till 10pm. Haha.. For me, I studied from 3.30pm till 7pm. After that have dinner and watch TV with Bb.

Really don’t know how to do. The subject is really difficult, I took a long time to solve each question. I’m trusting God that tomorrow’s exam will turn out well. :D

Been slacking on my quiet time for quite a while. Pastor recently talked about the importance of prayer. And he showed us the video clip of the world largest church and the fervency of the members there in praying really inspires me. Want to make a commitment to start to be more disciplined in my quiet time once again.

Last few days been great, managed to fulfill my commitment. I want to make sure that this commitment will continue. When I was packing my room, I found a note book. The first few pages it says that I’ve made myself a commitment to write down all the revelations that I have in the year of 2006. After that I wrote down a few entries and it never continues. I told myself I got to complete the book. I placed that note book near by Bible, so that I can just write down whatever revelations that I have when I’m having my quiet time.

Wrote one entry already. :D
It’s a good practice to pen down whatever revelation that you have. When I first found the book, I felt encouraged on what I have written the year before.

These few weeks will be quite busy studying for exams. Next tues I have one finance paper and the following Monday I have business law paper.

It’s really difficult to work and study at the same time. By the time reached home, I was quite tired already, don’t have much energy left to study. My concentration span at most can last for 2.5 hours. Yesterday I reached home at around 9plus. Start to study at around 9.50pm. I complete a text book question and about 10 multiple choice questions. By the time is about 11.30pm.

At first I only did 8 multiple choice questions, feeling really tired already, I literally need to force myself to do two more. Phew.. it was really challenging for me.

After that I have my quiet time before I call Bb. But I was so tired that I fell asleep without calling Bb. Hee.. woke up at 5am all of the sudden. Bb haven’t sleep yet. So called him for a while. Hee.. after that I went back to sleep also.

Seems like not much time left for me to study, but everyday reached home feeling very tired. It’s stretching for me. ARGH.. Feeling sleepy now.. sob sob..

Thank God for holiday tomorrow. I can sleep slightly later than usual. Hee..

Sometimes feel that take full time studies are really blessed, cause can have all the time in the world to study. But if I were asked to choose again, I will still take part time studies, cause the most important thing is that I can earn money. :D

I feel myself like a battery, didn’t charge full bar then go work, by the time finish work already low batt, still need to study. Very fast battery flat and go sleep, and didn’t charge full bar and go work again.

Thank God this sem I only need to take 2 papers. If it’s more don’t know what to do. Sob sob.. eye bags coming out liao…

Hee.. it’s been a llllllloooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggggggg time since I last packed my room. Hee.. lazy lah.. know my room’s messy but keep telling myself I can pack tomorrow.

Then last Friday Bb help me clear some stuff off my shelf. Next few days I also cleared away a lot of things. Cleared at least 6 big bag of stuffs. Hee.. since I won’t be using them, no point keeping.

Very shoik feeling to throw away so many things. It has the same healing effect as retail therapy..

My room look slightly nicer now, I’m gonna throw more stuff within the next 1-2 weeks. Hee.. it’s fun to throw things away~~~ Muahahaha.

Today morning went to Suntec see landlord with Celest. Meeting time is 10am. We’re late, caught in a jam. It was really sad, someset and suntec is so near and we can be late. Haha.. anyway we went to tower 5.

Total got 6 people in the meeting room. The meeting lasted for 1.5 hours. Phew.. Celest did most of the talking. When it comes to tenant issues, I’ll update them on the status also. Hee.. still have the ‘Out of place’ feel when I’m in the meeting room. Think maybe I haven’t got used to sales job yet.

After the meeting, we went to Peninsular Plaza, Celest needs to pay for her tour package. We tried the car lift at Peninsular Plaza. Both of us never tried before, and it was really exciting. We went to the third floor, the personnel in charge there says that it’s season parking, need to park our car somewhere else.

We went to peninsular shopping centre park our car instead, but at least we both tried the car lift.. hee.. it’s FUN!

After paying for the tour package, we went to have our lunch at Peninsular Shopping centre before going back to office. Hee…

Was talking to Cas on MSN. She has not got herself a new job yet. I’m in my new company for almost 3 months already. She really had a long holiday. She said she want a job that pays her really well. :D

After that she said something that inspires me. She said she want to go London, she said since now she doesn’t have many commitments, it’s a good opportunity to go out and experience life. She said she want to go London, work and holiday at the same time, for about 1-2 years.

She said she doesn’t want to get a degree just because everyone’s getting. She wants to do things because she wants it and not because the society wants her to do it. She said she doesn’t want to follow what the norm would do. That’s why she decided that once she got enough money, she will buy herself a ticket to go London.

I admire her courage. To dare to go overseas alone, leaving the connections behind, to go to a place that she can find the meaning in life. I don’t think I will have such courage as her. Maybe different people have different priorities in life ba. :D

I told her to go ahead to pursue what she wants, if not will regret in future. Felt that it’s a good idea for her to go for London, I encourage her to go for it. Then I disturb her says maybe when she come back, then she tell all of us she’s getting married! :D

The birthday party is at Aloha Loyang. We reached there at around 7pm. Bb initially wanted to walk in. I told Bb that there’s shuttle service to Aloha Loyang, we went to the taxi stand try our luck. Hee.. thank God that there’s a shuttle service at 7.15pm. we board the bus, we saw Cheng Jun, Alice, Hui Min and etc on the bus too~.

We reached the chalet and we have our dinner. A lot of people are there already. Heard from Lorraine’s bf that they book the chalet for 2 days 1 night only.

After the meal we went to Lorraine’s room, Alice, Ian, Jacq, etc etc are there. We wanted to play a game call, ‘Bluff’. It’s an ancient but fun game. But we didn’t manage to play after that, because going to have the cut cake ceremony.

All of us gather at the table. We took turns to take pictures.. after that Lorraine gave her birthday speech. And after she blow candle and cut the cake, Tony went forward and said that her previous birthday speech is too general, he req her to give a more specific birthday speech, catering to each group of people.

She thanked her family, she cried. After that she thanks her different groups of friends. And lastly her bf.

Then after that her bf asks her to close her eyes, got surprise for her. After Lorraine closed her eyes, her bf went to the back of the room, he got a bouquet of flowers, a small Jewellery box and Cheng Jun came in with a guitar.

Lorraine open her eyes, her bf gave her flowers and after that proposed to her. Woah~~ the scene was very touching. Second time I see proposal, both times are really touching. But this time more touching cause I personally know them. First time was in church, Liu Geng Hong proposed to Vivi. Anyway, Lorraine said yes of course! Haha.. Congrats~!

After that we ate cake, now the hot talking topic is about marriage. People keep asking each other who will be next and stuff.. haha..

Bb and I left the party at around 9plus.

After CG on Sunday, Jacky, Bb and I meet Huat to go Bugis. We plan to get Huat a birthday gift, to give him some new clothes.

Reached Bugis about 4pm. We went to Parco first, went into a lot of shops. Most of them selling either really kiddish stuff or very ah Beng stuff. Kinda difficult to get some thing nice for Huat.

After that we went to 77th street. The outlet at Bugis is super cool~ hee.. Huat got himself a top, it look nice on him.. :D

Bb got a top too~ after that I use my debit card to pay for it.. can collect points mah.. hee..

After that we went to the next shop and Bb got me a pair of slippers.. and I changed to my slippers immediately after that. Hee..

We shopped till about 6.30pm. Jacky and Huat go catch a movie. Bb and I go Lorraine Birthday party.

Today's the D&D! We reached Bugis Intercontinental Hotel at 4pm. Supposed to meet e rest of the team, mostly late. We end up play PSP when Jack and Huat arrive...

e joy of playing PSP... hee... I was so engrossed and I didn't know that pui took so many pics... What is Bb doing?? haha... very cute neh!~~~ Haha.. now Jen's turn... haha... OMG! And my hand looks fat... bleah.. need to do more arm exercise.. hee... Ar PUI!!!! My fav!! haha.. this pic we two look like sis rite?!?!?!?!?!?!? heee... she's cute!! I love her!! :D I'm in Emo mood today, so I took alot of pic with Emo face.. hee... me just came out from toilet carrying alot of things... hee... Just outside e grand ballroom got a huge mirror.. thought of taking a family pic include the frame... but e mirror too big, can't fit the mirror frame in.. hee.. but I like this pic! hee

Tomorrow is my company’s D&D!!! so excited! The theme for this year’s D&D is F1. Today went to HR room spoke to one of the HR, asking her the details of the D&D and the performance. I also asked her how come choose F1 theme, then what will she wear..

Her reason is: cause other kinds of theme all use before already, so choose F1 loh… anyway she said she’ll not follow the theme this year..

I heard not much follow theme loh… hee..

Tomorrow gonna wear all black black.. hee.. easier also.. universal colour.

Tomorrow gonna meet the dance people 4pm at bugis, prac a while then go rehearsal at 5.45pm. the D&D starts at 7.30pm. the dance is at 10pm. Hee.. and got lucky draw. Hopefully I can get the pink PSP slim… hee… :D