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Today bb was the coolest! He took part in the rock climbing competition. Before that, he took a short analysis. Cause on record shows 37 signed up for the event. Then he predicted about 10 people will eventually turn up. We reached the place about 8am. Saw ming zhe, we’re the earliest few. The rest all come later. Male tertiary category only got about 8 or 9 people went, less than prediction.

Don’t know how come I start to help out also. Calling those that are not here, checking whether are they coming.

The event start at about 9.30 am.

Ming zhe helped to take the timing of the male category and I also help for the female category. Hee… ming zhe first time took bb timing wrongly. He was ranked 2nd or 3rd the first round. Before 2nd round start, told ming zhe to get the timing correct this time. Haha.. He stressed by me.

2nd round starts. Bb really climb fast.. How can any human could possible climb that big wall in just 51 secs?!?! Totally stunned! Very proud of him!

Anyway I was supposed to start on the female category 2nd round too, but the girls are slowly wearing rock shoes, so managed to took a few pics of bb while he was climbing. Hee.. So happy. Then wen kai was really very irritating, he start to disturb me, tell me to start the 2nd round for the female category and stop taking pic of my boyfriend. He said that so loud la, then some of the female contestants start to ask who is my boyfriend. Then wen kai said, ‘nei, the one in yellow loh… ’ then some contestants very funny la, they start to shout, ‘hey, the one in yellow, your girlfriend cheering for you lei..’ don’t think bb heard that up there…anyway, the girls wear shoe really slow la, start the round when bb came back down.

Bb got 1st in the competition! Hee.. So cool la.. Took a few pictures during the prize giving ceremony and after the event. Hee..

After that we had lunch at Long John, I called it as a mini celebration. Hee..

Enjoyed today.

Just now watched the company video. And I saw myself!! Haha.. When they do the filming, they came to my department, then they took a 5 sec clip on us. Hee.. I’ll definitely keep the disc with me, cause it’ll be a very good memory for me.

Don’t think I’ll stay the company for long, but in future, I can show others what’s my working environment is like… hee.. Is real cool la.. Love it man.. Haha..

And to my surprise, I saw that always-unhelpful-manager in that clip. Then just now I show pui how that manager looked like. Next time I can also use that disc to remember his face.. Haha.. Bleah..

The interview at SIM was great. I had a nice conversation with the lecturer. It does not feel like its interview at all. Anyway, being trained in SP for so long, interview is no sweat to me. Muahaha…

When I got into the room, the lecturer asked me why I choose this course. I gave him the standard answer; took business in poly, so it was good to continue with this area. Furthermore I have interest in business subject also, so this course would be ideal to me.

The lecturer passed me the letter of offer. Then after that he explained when the open house is and how the course is going to be like. Now then I know that UniSIM only offer night classes. It’s good for me also, so that I can get a full time job to support myself while studying. But the problem is that I not sure whether I can cope with it. I’ll see how, still waiting for the reply from other schools. So if SMU called me for interview, I would like to go. But thank God that at least I will have a fall back to lean on.

Later going to have the interview for SIM. Really excited. I really wonder what will happen. Got a feeling most prob I will end up in SIM. But I want to go SMU, firstly the location is really good and I love the school environment and the culture. Anyway, let God lead. :D

Just now had OSA (online support assistant) training. Is a two hour training, one hour is theory and one hour practical. The theory was really dry, wanted to fall asleep. Think Ramli saw me dozing off. Haha.. After that Nuraini and I have a 15 mins break, had a chat with her before going to the 4th floor showroom to have the practical. Had a chance to play with the machines.. It’s really cool man! It’s really fun to hands on to play and see the details of the machine.

Just now during training, I got chance to interact with San Remo, Varenne, Tarzan colour, Tarzan mono, Nausicaa, Sheeta, Einstein, and many other more. And also Ramli got open up the machine and show us where the drum, toner, staple cartridges is. I think the coolest one will be the Varenne. Cause the cartridges are like washing machine form, they will only show one toner and the rest will hide in the machine. When need to change the toner, need to adjust from the machine, and the machine will internally spin the toner to the ‘door’ of the ‘washing machine’ and you can replace the toner.

It’s really really cool. Think being an engineer quite fun too! Haha… but don’t think I would want to be an engineer la, it should be quite stressful being one. Need to make sure the machine works and need to meet target. Woah.. stress stress..

After working here for so long, start to fell in love with the machines.. Haha.. Next time if have a company, can get a Xerox copier. Haha..

broke e the news with my parents that I got attached. My mum said, ‘hai.. ‘ and shood her head. Her expression is those disappointing kind of look. Then my dad said, ‘wah, so fast fixed liao meh?’ he point is that usually children will inform parents that they got attached only when the couple feels that most prob they will be each other’s half not far in the future. (aka getting married soon)

But my dad didn’t really object, just gave a few pointers to take note. My mum still not quite happy. After that pui told me that mum not happy because I always come home very late after I got attached.

But don’t have much time to spend time with Bb also. 24 hours is not enough to meet. That time pui and mum got talked about me and Bb, thank God for pui. She tried to speak for me, mum seems to understand a little more.

Second day of Benny Hinn’s crusade was simply awesome. During the first day, I was really physically very tired. Wanted to sleep even before the meeting starts. But on the second day, I felt well rested, really could enjoy the service.

On the second day, the presence of God was so strong, was being reminded by the crusade two years ago. Pastor Benny prayed for the choir, I fell under the power of God. It’s really very heavy to continue standing. But something supernatural happened. When I fell, I felt my left hand went numb, I couldn’t feel my left hand, after that my right hand start to have the same reaction. After a while, my mouth area starts to feel numb too. Numb feeling start from the left then spread further to the right. After that, my chest area starts to numb. And after that followed by my legs.

It’s really strange that there’s only selective area. And from that kind of situation, only God could make it possible. After that I had hard time standing up. After managed to get myself standup, I realized that I couldn’t control my hand cause I couldn’t feel it at all. I lifted up my arms to worship God, but my hand was distorted. It looked real strange. Think it takes another 10 mins for my hands to return to normal.

When I fell after Pastor prayed, I really wondered why is the numb feeling happening to me. After that God reminded me, He said the crusade two years ago, Pastor Benny mentioned that his hands would feel numb when he felt the healing anointing upon him. And that crusade, Pastor Benny prayed that we too would have that sign. But that day, I felt nothing. Felt God speaking to me that this is the sign that didn’t came two years ago. God showed me that He’s real, He’ll never leave me out.

I really felt encouraged. I am really amazed by the power of God. Never felt the power of God at work in my life before.

Cannot stand firm throughout the whole service after that, presence of God was simply very strong. Unusual signs and wonders really happened on that day. woah.. It’s really an eye opener for me.

Pastor benny commented that he wanted to bring the whole choir to Israel. Woo hoo! Really hope that it’s true, so that I can step foot in God’s holy city. Woo hoo!

Really enjoyed the service.

Today was the first day of Pastor Benny Hinn’s meeting. It was good. The presence of God was there to heal. Really looking forward for the next two days, believed that the power of God will be even stronger.

Really honored to have a chance to be part of the Benny Hinn choir again. It’s really great. Before the service, we ran through all the songs with Pastor Jim. We did well. But after the practice, I realized that I shouldn’t use all my strength. Cause I really have no voice to sing for the actual. Now my throat still a bit sore from all the singing.

Got a lot of unusual healing took place. Remembered got one lady she said her right ear could not hear since 1 years old. The fungus eaten up her right ear bone. This year she is 63, and God healed her. Woah.. It’s really awesome…

Got another lady said that her back has more than 40 screws and rods, she couldn’t bend down initially. And now she could bend down.

Got many who are wheel chair bound stood up, their cancer and pain are gone. Praise the Lord!

I really wonder what God will do for the 2nd and the 3rd day. Hee..

Phantom of the Opera. This is still my favorite musical till now. Finally able to watch that on wed. hee.. It’s nice! Love this musical. Although I know exactly what the story is about, but it’s really nice to see all over again. Hee..
Pui went with me, together with Cas, her cousin and her friend. She was told that she booked the 5th row when she ordered the tickets. But when we got there, realized it’s actually the first row. Cas say she want to complain.

Anyway, I don’t intend to complain. Hee..

The show was really nice! Loved it man. I sat at the first row, right at the centre. The conductor was nearest to me. She gave me a scare when she stood up suddenly, cause her head will stick out.

The chandelier was also very close to me. Almost hit my head when the chandelier falls. If I stretch up my hand and yawn during that part, the chandelier sure will hit me…

The show was nice, enjoyed it. But I felt that they act too fast. Felt like rushing for time like that. Haha.. I think if they act slower, will be perfect. Hee..

Good thing of sitting in front:
- can see the actors/actresses’ faces very clearly, including every expression, every wrinkles, etc..
- can feel the most when the actor use the gun *bam*
- can feel the most when they uses the dry ice..

Bad thing of sitting in front:
-cannot see what’s going on at the back of the stage. Unless I’m 1.8m in height, then I can see everything while sitting.
-cannot see the phantom at all during the part when he right above us. Only can see his hands.

Overall, I enjoyed the show a lot. Hee..

After the show, went to makansutra there to eat. And we really talk crap. Most of the time I disturbed Cas with all my nonsense. And she did the same to me. Haha..

That day Cas’s cousin and friend, pui and me all wear black. Cas is the only one that wore black plus red stripe dress. Then I deliberately separate her from the rest, using her age and the dress. Cause she’s the only one above 21, and who ask her to disturb me first? She was very disturbed by me. Muahaha..

Anyway that’s how we talked when we work too. This makes life not so boring. We kept disturb each other, of course we know that we don’t really mean what we say la.. Haha.. It’s really fun to have friends like her to disturb.. Woo hoo.. Sounds saddist.. Haha..

Anyway, really loved Phantom of the Opera, will always be one of my favorite musical…

Back to the story, after eating, Cas, her cousin and her friend took a cab each. Kel came over with the van and send us back home... :D

First date after getting together.

Went to SIM to submit the supporting documents for admission for Uni, after that met him at City Hall. Went to buy chocolates and eat. Today’s work was really very stressful, the calls are record bad. And I’m the only one taking care of my own board, so need to settle everything myself. Anyway, chocolates really can work wonders, not so stressed out after popping some M&M’s. hee..

We walked to Marina Square, walked around. Saw a very big globe at one of the shop. We stood there and looked at the globe for quite sometime. Kel really went to a lot of places, it’s so nice la. I only went to China, Singapore, Macau, Malaysia, and Thailand. Haha.. Want to go more places next time. Want to see different parts of the world, but now no money and no time sia.. next time ba..

We decided to watch movie. Watched ‘Sunshine’. it’s a movie about a group of people going on an expedition to the sun to save mankind. The group of people did not survive back to home, but they managed to fulfil their mission. The show is really nice. Loved the show.

The movie ended at around 11.40pm, so we made our way back to MRT station, trying to catch the last train. When we reached the MRT station, Kel realized that he lost his handphone. My first reaction is to go back and look for it. He got suggest me to go home first, but I wouldn’t want to do that. If I go home first, I can get home earlier and maybe saved on some money, but I won’t be at ease.

So we headed back to go look for the phone. He was quite worried, cause his phone got really a lot of contacts. Will have a lot of difficulty retrieving back the information. I told him that the phone sure can get back, no worries. I believed that that day is really blessed. Met Kel’s friend earlier on when we at outside HMV, then she pass us two free Gelare ice cream voucher. Haha.. Free ice cream dropped from heaven.

Since today was so blessed. The phone can definitely be retrieved.

Went to GV, the shuttle’s down, couldn’t see anyone in there. We went around the empty mall to look for security, see whether are they able to help. We looked around for quite sometime, managed to find a security, he suggest we go to the security office to see his supervisor. We go down to Carls’s Junior that side, saw the second security, he directed us to the office. We met the third security, told him about the situation. Thank God that GV still have people around, and they found the phone. Woo hoo! So happy! :D

We went to the ‘secret’ lift to go to inside of GV, the person pass us the phone back. And we went out of Marina Square.

Initial plan was to see whether got any bus, then we take the bus and after that take cab. But that time is aleady 12.45am, a lot of last bus has already left.

Since we missed the last train and last bus, why not stay longer? Hee..

Went to Makansutra there to eat. We da bao the food and drinks and we go esplanade there to eat. We sat long the sea side. The food is really nice. Kel said he still missed the fried oyster egg at Thailand. Haha..

Anyway, went home after eating. Felt very tired after such a long day but was really fun! Especially looking for the phone part. Hee.. it's really exciting, but don't think want to try again cause not sure whether next time such thing happen, can we get the item back not. haha.. :D

Last week was Easter weekend. Went for services for all 3 days. The drama was really good. But it’s only the last service, I was really touched by the drama. Reaction kinda slow huh… haha… pui acted as antelope and wild monkey in hell.. Haha.. Opps.. Think she gonna kill me when she see this.. Haha.. It’s really good la.. This is the first time she took part in big production like this, she really did great! So proud of her. Kel also involved in backstage, can see he’s really very tired after so many days of sleepless nights. I wonder anyone can invent something that are able to help others to sleep? I think is a real good invention if someone really able to do that. Haha…

Anyway, the carnival was great too! I really spent a lot on the food. Quite a number of nice food around. Ate like pig man. Haha.. The game this year is more on arcade games. Saw para-para too, but didn’t play. Cause it’s been so long since I last played, so think I forget all the steps already. Haha..

I really enjoyed the Easter weekend. Really looking forward for this coming week. Can watch Phantom, on leave 2 days, attend Benny Hinn crusade. Woohoo! Haha..

I'm attached. :D It might sound real weird, but he’s my first boyfriend in my whole life. Haha.. Truly thank God that He brought Kel into my life, I’m blessed. From here on, it’s not going to be easy, but I believe that it’ll definitely be a real fun and exciting time. Really never regretted in making this decision.

Couldn’t thank God enough for blessing Kel in my life, he’s definitely more than I could ever imagined.

Love ya!

擁抱

作詞：陳信延　作曲：Lee Sang-Ho　編曲：動靜音樂

你懷著傷口　在人海獨自漫遊你低著頭　

不再看星座以為沒人懂　

就狠狠關上窗口可是這寂寞　

原來每個路人都懂

＊你我都有過　擁抱一樣的難過　

給我你的雙手　讓我貼近你(的)胸口（真心擁有）　

溫柔在流動　擁抱復活的感動　

沉默都能夠交流　心緒化做心跳的節奏

想哭的時候　竟想起我的笑容

流下的淚光　原來會在暗中閃爍

天空　如果要烏雲飄過　就陪你等候

你在害怕什麼　我在雨後城市中看到彩虹

Repeat（＊）

不管宇宙多遼闊　擁抱拉近你我　的星球

Fell in love with this song. Feel like hugging someone every time when I listen to this song. Remember those times when I hugged others, I felt encouraged, I felt loved. I felt that I’m not alone, felt that I have the energy to move on further.

We do have flaws in life, do have hurts and burdens. Many are so wounded by events that’s going on in our own lives.

Hugging someone is giving healing to my soul. Just want to share with you this song… enjoy!

Saw Jen's Blog has this table. Decided to play too! Haha..

1. Start Time: 12.31 am

2. Name: Sin Man
3. Nickname: man
4. Astrology sign: Aries
5. Gender: Female, and I’m proud of that
7. Hair color: Dark Brown
8. Eye color: Super Dark Brown
9. Height: 164
10. Favorite color: PINK!!!
11. Glasses: Of course… hai… so sad
13. tattoos: no way man, it look real painful.. Ew..
14. Birthplace: Hong Kong la… that’s so far away from here.. Haha..
15. Area code: what talking?
16. friends: friends? What kind of question is that? Of course I got friends…

******HAVE YOU EVER*****

17. cut your own hair? : ya man… will do that when I’m super bored or super stressed
18. Done something in the past regret? : got.. A lot, but no point looking back, need to learn from mistakes and move on
19. Have you ever met someone you werenot supposed to? : ya… many times
21. Skipped school? : do I looked like those that are super Guai?? Of course I got skip school, lots of times… muahaha… thrill of skipping school…
22. Bungee jumped? : no way man.. Unless someone kick me down
24. Punched someone? : play play one considered??
25. Cheated on someone? : Nope
26. Been arrested? : Nope
27. Broken into someones house? Nope
28. Been to a funeral? : Yes...
32. Used a lighter? : once in a black sun

*****FAVORITE*****

34. Season: Winter
36. Ice cream flavor: Vanilla, all time fav. Plus choc chips also good
37. School subject(s): Chinese! Haha.. Cause this is the only subject then can score high and impress others.. Hee..
38. Candy: munchy kind..
39. Breakfast: I love to eat anything..
40. Juice: erm.. Mixture of red Apple and Grape-flavoured yakult.. Hee.. Weird combi, but is super nice…
41. Book(s): mostly christian self help books.. Learnt a lot from them, favourite writer is Max Lucado.
42. Movie(s): lots of them, too many to list.
43. Song(s): songs by SUN!!! any many other artistes like Lee Hom, Ah Mei, Show, Ayumi, Hirai Ken, Craig David. Also not forgetting CCM artistes like Michael W Smith, Delirious, CCC band, CHC, Youth Alive…
50. Letter(s): every single one of them. It’s really heart warming to receive letters from people
51. Favorite restaurant : Chinese food is still my fav.
52. Disney Princess: Cinderella
53. TV station: huh? TV station? Erm.. TVB? NHK?
54. Name for a son: erm.. Haven’t think till that far sia…
55. Name for a daughter: really no comment on that

****DO YOU PREFER*****

56. Chocolate or Vanilla? : Vanilla
57. Alcoholic or not? : me and alcohol can't be linked
60. Scary movies or comedies? : now I prefer comedies
61. Short or long hair? : long.. I love long hair… more like a girl…
62. Croutons or bacon bits? : I’m hungry already…

******FIRST THINGS THAT COME TO MIND******

64. Mexicans in general: big hats, cactus.. Very hot!
65. School: erm… school.. It’s erm.. Interesting! Yawn~~~ opps.. I just lied!
66. Grass: moo~~~
67. Cow: I missed May Shan! Haha.. Moo~~
68. Canada: red leaves.
69. Mouse: Jerry!
70. Hands: I wanna hold hands…

******THE PAST 3 DAYS, HAVE YOU******

71. Watched a movie? : not so rich to watch so frequently. Need to save money on other stuffs you know?
72. Talked on the phone? : duh… I talk on phone EVERYDAY. It’s my job…
73. Cried? : almost for these last 3 days, but didn’t
74. Choked? : no.. haha.. Thank God
75. Drank a glass of water? : if I didn’t I won’t be writing now..
76. Done Drugs? : NO
77. Read a book or magazine? : I read book almost everyday now
78. Watched TV? : TV… erm.. Less than an hour
79. Looked in the mirror? : everyday.. Haha… cannot go out without looking at the mirror first.
80. Taken a shower? : I’ll stink if I don’t
81. Taken a picture? : I usually take tons of pics on weekend. Weekday no mood to take pic.
82. Listened to music? : music will never leave my life
83. Kissed someone? : erm.. What a qn. Nop..
84. Told someone you liked them? : I love all the people that I know. :D

85: End time: 12.53am

Yeah! Finally is holiday!! Haha… today supposed to have half day training. We called that the ‘wow’ training. I heard from Serene, is a psycho session. It is to make you think what they want you to think, to ‘wow’ customers.

Anyway I’m not interested in the training, more interested in having a half day break. Anyway, the training was cancelled. Sian..

Dragged to work for the second half, really very holiday mood.

After work, went to Starbucks with Cas and Lin. Hee.. Really enjoyed time spent with them. Really talked about a lot of things… really thank God that I have real nice colleagues like them.

We sat there till about 0930pm, we headed home. I took train back. I sat the corner seat, so can lean on the glass and sleep throughout the trip. Then I woke up when I reached Yishun, spotted a guy sitting opposite me, staring at me. He looked 20 plus also, easy to spot him cause his eyes very big. He quickly looked away when I looked up. He got a friend with him, but his friend was standing with back facing me.

I think I really very tired, I went back to sleep, woke up at Sembawang. That guy was already staring at me, I not sure how long he stared at me, and this is getting uneasy. Do I look so weird that cause him to stare at me so many times? Anyway, he looked away again when I stared back at him.

Same thing happen when the train reached Admiralty. Feel like telling him, ‘hey, can you stop staring at me? Can you just look elsewhere, ALL the time?’

Super irritated, when I reached woodlands, I just walked off, don’t even bother to stare back at him anymore. How can someone keep staring like that, it’s really super rude. Do I look funny?

While walking back home, console myself, maybe I pretty la, then he keep looking over.. Haha.. (oh man.. Feel like puking.. I didn’t expect myself to say such things, pardon me…) but one thing for sure, it’s not nice that someone keep staring at you, and he is a very bad stare-er. Cause I spotted him every time when he looked over, and he deliberately look elsewhere when I spotted him.

Super lousy.

Yesterday MC. Today went back to work; Cas told me one super good news. She said, for the new financial year of company, South board and her board CSM changed. For north and XES board CSM no changes…

Oh man, what GREAT news… still the same manager? Still going to stick with that always-so-helpful manager? Greatest news ever heard. Always hope that once financial year ends, then the manager can change for someone better. Why still da same?!?!?!

Cannot take it la… why him?? Think I really over-reacted. Hee..

Think on the bright side. At least you no need to spend time to adapt to new manager. You can still plan according to your own wish; you can still take ownership in times of need.

Look on the bright side… the bright side~~~

Today Kenny was very funny. He said he was having headache. Then he come back to office to submit claims. When he reached, he looked into the fish tank. I went out to meet him. Then he ask me whether I got panadol. Just nice yesterday I got see doc, doc got give me paracetamol, gave him two. After going back to my seat, called him again, remind him to eat something first before eating the medicine. Then he said, ‘aiya, why didn’t tell me earlier, I just swallowed…’

Me, ‘wah.. Why so fast? Your headache really so serious? Later if you don’t eat, might get giddy, how to drive?’

Kenny, ‘oh ya huh… wah… I think I better go pantry drink some water, you scaring me man.’

Me, ‘haha… aiya… later you giddy how? So better to remind you… later see how la, grab a bite downstairs loh…’

Then another engineer, Sharhar, also did something funny. Cause yesterday I MC, so he thought I not around today also. Then today morning he has morning leave. Then after lunch time, I received a SMS from him, he wrote, ‘look behind you.’

I really looked behind; I really wondered how come he wrote that, cause behind me was pillar.

Then I called him, ‘hey Sharhar, why look behind?’

Sharhar, ‘oh sin man you’re back ar.. you feeling better already ma? haha.. cause I was at office just now ma, then I thought Joey was taking the board today, so wanted to tell her to look behind… haha…’

Me, ‘haha.. Funny la you… I saw you just now la, when you are outside. Haha.. Anyway can take call already rite? I message you the call later.. haha..’

Although their CSM really cannot make it, but the engineers are really very nice to me. Enjoyed working with them.

Still remembered when I just took over the board, really have quite a lot of difficulty, cause I’m slower than Joey that time, and I didn’t make wise choices. Now got more training, able to cope better with my speed and call planning skills. And also worked with them for quite a few months, slowly understand the engineers’ habits and many other info.

Overall, I really prefer dispatching. Although driving me nuts sometimes, but I like to work with the engineers. :D

Today went to Rock Climbing at Yishun Safra. Those went are Si Kai, Kel, Desong and Ber. First time rock climbing. I’m super afraid of heights, so it’s really a challenge for me.

Reached the place at around 11am. Not a lot of people there at that time. The wall is about 15 m in height. I was thinking to myself, my target is only till 6 or 7 m at most. I didn’t expect myself to do beyond that.

The first wall we climb is the easiest, that’s what Kel said. To me, it’s really challenging, really want to give up mid way. Cause the wall was protruding out, then I really don’t know how to push myself up. Half way up, my hands really lack of strength, hands and feet are trembling already. Oh man, then Kel don’t let me go down, I was like… I have to go up. Don’t know how come managed to climb the full 15m wall. Woo hoo! Better than what I expect myself to achieve.

After the climb, my hands totally have no strength, even take handphone also got problem. Haha..

Ber was after me, she was so pro. She climb up so fast sia… gravity has no effect on her too. Haha..

I only climbed once. Cause after that attempt, really no more strength. Even after so many hours of resting, my hands now still felt so weak, couldn’t type fast.

Maybe next time can try again, but really must lose weight sia. Really too heavy to climb, my hands very tired. Haha..

Few days ago, came across this passage in the Bible. It’s about the Passover feast. Jesus and the disciples are gathering at the upper room to have the last dinner together.

Jesus took the basin and towel, and knelt down before His disciples and wash their feet.

How great is His love!

Jesus has been with them for about 3 years. In these 3 years, the disciples made lots of mistakes. There are so many flaws in them. Jesus knew what they did, He knew what are their private thoughts and doubts.

What would you do if you knew all the mistakes your love ones did or will ever make? What if you knew all of their thoughts about you and about life, their dislikes, their flaws? Will you still love the same?

Jesus knew what they did, Jesus knew what they are going to do. Shortly after that, those feet that Jesus wash will be running about to hide themselves. Was it hard to love someone like them even days before Jesus’ death, they are still arguing about which of them was the best? Was it hard to love someone like Thomas, who He knew one day He would question about His resurrection? Was it hard to love someone like John and Peter, who wanted to destroy the enemies and wanted to slice off someone’s ear? Did Jesus ever felt tempted to gather a new batch of followers? How was Jesus able to love people who are hard to like?

Jesus loves them. Jesus trust them. Jesus forgives them.

Jesus knelt down before the disciples during the Passover feast. Jesus washed their feet. Bible said Jesus washed all the disciples’ feet, that includes Judas’s. Jesus knew what Judas would do. Jesus knew that this pair of feet will betray Him at that very night! But Jesus still love Him the same. Jesus still washed his feet.

How come Jesus would want to take on such a role, to be the lowest of all, to wash His disciples’ feet?

Within hours, these disciples will be running for their lives, feeling ashamed. Jesus knew all of it. Jesus did that, so that they could be reminded how He knelt before them and wash their feet. Jesus wants to let them know that their feet are still clean. Jesus forgave their sins before they committed it, Jesus offered mercy before they even seek for it.

So many times, I find it difficult to forgive. Reading about what happened on that day when Jesus washes His disciples’ feet. To be honest, I find it difficult to do the same. The hurt is so deep, it’s too much to forgive…

It’s time, stop staring at the one who did you wrong. It’s time for you to start fixing your eyes on the One that saved you.

Have a heart, the heart of Jesus.

Sometimes I do ask myself, how to have a heart like Jesus?

Be like what Jesus did. Kneel as Jesus knelt. Wash every unkindness with kindness. To love people just as Christ loves them.

‘I’m not the one who did wrong, I’m not guilty, I’m not the one that cheat. Why must I be the one that forgive?’ maybe those sentences will come to your mind when you wanted to forgive. Maybe you did no wrong. Jesus did no wrong either.

Jesus, the only One that are worthy, washes other’s feet and be willing to be the lowest of all. The One that stretches His arm of mercy even before you seek it. The One that’s innocent, the Almighty, the Lord of all, initiates the act of forgiveness…

I really love this sentence that Max Lucado wrote:

Relationship won’t thrive because the guilty are punished but because the innocent are merciful.

Jesus did for the disciples, Jesus did it for you and me too.