Living for a new tomorrow.

brain stoning, calls bad, tired

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

These few days been quite bad days for me in office. The calls are very high. I am taking care north and XES board. North is really a big area, cover places like kallang, orchard, Thomson, bukit timah, woodlands, sungei kadut, mandai, bukit batok, choa chu kang, ang mo kio, toa payoh. In land mass wise, north board has the largest area among other territory for office machines.

Since last Thursday, the call has been very high. There are still many calls outstanding at the end of the day and need to pour over to next day. And the next day, same amount or even more calls come in, then I really have hard time planning and clearing the calls.

Then on sat, I arrange 6 north engineers on duty. That’s double of what the usual amount. Some Saturdays there are only 2 working. Got approval from the manager, he said do whatever you can to clear the calls. At the end of sat duty, I thought this week will be a better week, cause the calls cleared almost everything.

But today, really had a shock of my life, today’s call is even worse. No matter how hard I try to clear, there are always about 30 calls outstanding in my Q.

End of today, all the engineers have already been assigned with 2 jobs for next day. After giving everyone 2 jobs on pending, there are still about 10 outstanding have not given out. It’s really very scary. Usually everyone will have only 1 job on hand for the next day.

Today got a lot of urgent calls. Total about 10 of them still outstanding at 4pm in the afternoon. Initially I really wonder how to clear. Can’t take much calls also. Oh man.. But thank God that he really pulled me through. And some of the engineers are really very helpful. They can help to take OT and some help me to call customer to see whether can service the machine the next working day. Really thank God for them. And all the urgent calls I could either get engineers to go down or I can push till the next day. Everything just fall into place nicely.

I really hope that tomorrow will be a better day. With less calls.. Way lesser calls.

Think really need to rest earlier today. Today think too much already, now having headache again. My throat never get well before, eating tons of lozenges already. No time to rest my throat sia, everyday need to talk so much, then these few days calls so high. Can really get crazy in office sia.

Thank God that I got some nice colleagues in office. If not my life will be super miserable.

I’m already been working there for 7.5 months. More than half way done. Haha.. I was shocked that I can stay there for so long. Looking forward for June.

After work, my favorite past time is really stoning. Just now went back home with Jennifer, I was really very tired. I simply don’t want to think about anything. Brain really can’t function anymore. I stone there throughout the whole journey.

Oh man.. So fast is 12midnight. Time to sleep, time pass so fast. After the short sleep, I need to go for war again. Hai~~~~

&lovin' Bb at 12:10 AM♥

Hilarious moments

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Today I had a fun time in office. I’m not talking about I am having fun at work. Today, my colleague (I shall not reveal the name of the person, if not I will be skinned alive) did two wonderful things at work.

First incident: my colleague show me the SATs book that she is studying. Then I not sure what happened to her, the said, ‘see! How book is my big!’ I was really stunned. What is she talking about? Actually she wanted to say ’how big is my book.’ she accidentally said it wrongly.

And I replied her, ‘ya, your big is very book. Haha.’ is really very funny. Oh man. I really laugh till my head drop. Haha..

After that, when we are leaving the office, we need to scan our card out. Then 3 of us are going to tap our card, one-by-one. That colleague is the 2nd in line, I am right behind her. Initially I want to disturb her. I want to intercept her card. Means that before the scanner can have time to record, I tap quickly, so the record will only show mine. So I was looking at the scanner. And I not sure what happened to her, she took out her Ez-Link card to scan.

I stunned again. After working one whole day, my brain kind of stop functioning for a while. Then after that I shouted, ‘OMG! You used Ez-Link to scan out!!! Haha’

The most funny thing is that, our company card is attach to a lanyard, and we will carry it whether we go. I really not sure what happened to her, she go make an effort to dig out her Ez-Link from her super big bag and the took it out from our office all the way to the exit and scan that card.

Haha.. I think she’s too stressed at work. Haha..

&lovin' Bb at 1:27 AM♥

How wonderful are God's creations

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Woke up early in the morning today, went out to do prayer walk again. It’s been a long time since I last had one.

Sometimes, I really enjoyed walking alone in the morning. No one is around. And that area is really spacious. Today I walk by a different route. Really felt God speaking to me in many areas when I walk along the road. God’s presence is tangibly felt in that place, I really had a great time pouring out my heart to Him.

Really felt the peace of God came upon me. After praying, really gives me the strength to continue to move on.

God also bless me with a wonderful gift today. He showed me the beautiful sunrise. I am totally captivated by it. Thank God for camera phone, I took quite a number of pictures, so just want to share with all of you. God’s creation is truly very beautiful, I really love it.

&lovin' Bb at 1:20 AM♥

Memory Of the Heart

Monday, January 15, 2007

Today, been listening to Dr A R Bernard’s sermon. The title is ‘Memory of the Heart’. I’m really blessed by this sermon. It makes be understand myself better. Some examples would be how I feel the way I feel now, why sometimes I’m fearful in stepping out in new challenges in life, etc.

I really enjoyed the sermon, he dealt with mainly two parts; the heart, and fear.

The heart

The heart can store memories too. For woman, when we remember things, we tend to remember how we felt at that point of time first, and after that, we are able to recall all the details just by recalling the feeling we had. For man, they tend to remember the summary of things happened.

And he also said many examples on how woman and man react when certain scenarios took place.

Fear

The first emotion when man first fall. Adam hid himself from the presence of God in the garden of Eden as he was afraid. Fear should be dealt with first once we got saved. Satan gets his power through fear. He does things that cause the atmosphere of fear, so that he can keep you in his bondage.

Fear has the magnetic, just like faith. Fear will attract what you really fear most. God has not given the spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind. If no fear, then there is power, love, and sound mind. Satan wants to keep fear there, then he can continue to rob us from sound mind.

Fear, fear of failure.

Fear of venturing into new business, fear of doing more things for God, fear of going into new ground, fear of engaging into new relationships.

We tend to be afraid of failing. We do not want to have the feeling of fear. And many times, we do things out of fear, and not faith.

Fear causes us to bury our gifts, just like the servant that has one talent. The servant cherish it, to an extent that he don’t want to use it. And that servant blamed his master for his lack of productivity.

Sometimes we’re like this, we tend to blame others on our own failure.

How to remove fear from our lives?

Let love drive out that fear, the perfect love of God.

Many times when we are afraid, we felt that we’re alone, be convinced that God is always with you. Have the assurance in your heart that God will be there to protect you and will never let anything happen to you.

Father God says, ‘I will not let anything happen to you, I will never leave you or forsake you. Don‘t be afraid.’

God love Jesus so much. So much till Jesus have confidence to go into the grave and trusted His Father will raise Him from the dead.

Bible said that God’s love for us, is the same as the way He love Jesus.

The love that is so great, that is greater than any obstacles ahead.

Abba Father, sorry that I didn’t trusted you enough. Many times I tend to do things my own way. Truly many times I’m afraid, afraid to fail. Many things been kept aside, cause I am just like the servant with one talent. I am afraid that this little talent will not be enough to make things happen. Many times, I’m afraid to fail, really afraid that one mistake could cripple my life. Many times, I am living life out of fear, not of trust in You.

Lord, may I know You in a deeper level of who You are. May I have a greater revelation of calling You ‘Abba Father’. Lord, I love You. I release all my fears into Your hands. Let Your love cover and heal my fearful heart. I can trust in You, I can rely on You.

Thank You God. You loves me, I truly understands, I truly experienced, I truly believe.

&lovin' Bb at 9:54 PM♥

Strength

Saturday, January 13, 2007

Strength - to many, is an energy that enables you to do something. This strength can be increased through various sources. Some examples is like eating, drinking, and resting. This strength can also decrease, run out and diminish.

To me, this kind of strength is just the physical, is not enough.

This is not the real strength.

This kind of strength is not able to bring me far far away. I need to go far far away. I got limited strength, a girl like me, what strength do I have to go far far away?

I need something else, a kind of strength that will never go away, a strength that is forever strong. This kind of strength cannot be increase just by eating or resting.

There is only one person who has it.

Jesus has it.

He has the strength to withstand all temptations, oppositions. When problems arises, He has the strength to confront it. His strength preserves and are able to endure the cross.

God, I need Your strength. Sometimes, things in life can really drain all my energy out. I don’t even have extra energy to accomplish other things in life. I need Your strength that is always powerful, never changing, and faithful; a strength that perseveres, encourages, endures till the end.

Honestly, after work, really don’t have much energy to do more things. Really need rest after work. But in my heart, I really want to do more things for You. But my own strength can’t bring myself to where I want myself to be.

Jesus, let Your strength be my strength.

&lovin' Bb at 2:57 AM♥

Blood Diamond

Today, went to see movie with Huat, Jacky and Kel. We watched Blood Diamond. Initially, I am reluctant to watch this movie, cause the poster looked boring.
Before that, Darryl recommend this movie. He said that this movie is meaningful, but entertainment value is not as much.

After watching, I really love this show. I enjoyed it. Almost cried in the movie theatre. Haha.. The story is touching. It showed a father’s love to his son, showed how people trying to survive in such a chaotic world like that. Besides that, it also shows how circumstances in life can really change a person.

It really gives me another angle to ponder about in the other part of this world. I love this movie.

I put it a 5 upon 5. Is a must-watch. You need to watch this movie then you can understand. Just got home. Kind of tired. But I want to blog first. Haha..

&lovin' Bb at 2:12 AM♥

Weekend soon!

Friday, January 12, 2007

Is Friday tomorrow! Praise the Lord. I really love Friday. Today at work. I need to complete an employment survey. It contains questions that is about the level of satisfaction you have in your job and the company.

Many part is talking about roxie. (former name lulu) initially, I ticked all the correct boxes, from totally disagree to totally agree. I ticked the truthful version. Then after that cas say must be careful, cause my name is there. Then I change my choices. I ticked everything agree. Really every single questions, I tick agree. Oh man, I lied so many times today. Oh God, please forgive me. Haha..

I really wonder what will happen if I tick ‘totally disagree’ that the manager treats everyone with respect; fair to everyone; give allowances for team members to make own decisions. I really wonder what will happen. Never mind. I think I go the safer way.

If everyone is like me, really no point having a survey.

But what to do? Really need the salary to bring home, how can I do anything stupid.

Irony of survey.

&lovin' Bb at 1:01 AM♥

Tired from all the talking

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

These few days been very tiring. These two days been talking a lot at work. My mouth’s very tired from all the talking. After work really don’t want to even a face muscle. Now I still have not recovered. And tomorrow still need to go and talk some more. Sometimes really sick and tired of talking on the phone.

Today cas and I working. We commented that after working here, we really don’t want to talk on phone after work. Replying SMSes become much slower also. Initially I thought I’m the only one that has this problem. Cas also having the same problem. Haha.. I’m not alone.

My face muscle really aching. I think I gonna have 6 packs on my face soon! Haha..

&lovin' Bb at 11:26 PM♥

All for love

Sunday, January 07, 2007

All for love - Hillsong united

All for love a Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love heavens cried
For love was crucfied

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Drawn near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You

Let me sing all for love
I will join the angel song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all

All for a love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to You

I recently come across this song. I simply love it. Talked about the love of the Father. How great is God’s love. You sent Jesus to die for our place.

Jesus, you died for us, before we even say ‘yes’ to you. We pushed you to the cross. You still love us as much.

Jesus,

All for love.

You came to this world.

All for love.

You forgive us again and again.

All for love.

You changes our lives.

All for love.

Love, You died, and save our lives, forever.

Everything I need is You. I know there are countless times that I’ve broken Your heart, I have disappointed you deeply. I know there are many flaws in my life that need to be changed. there are many walls that need to be broken. Lord, You know there are times that I stay stagnant, there are times that I don’t have anymore energy to take up the hammer and break the wall. You know me. God, make me more like You.

Everything I need is You, my beginning, my forever.

Many times, I don’t know what to do, I don’t know where to go. Your love made a way for me. My life is in You care. I know that everything is in Your prefect timing. I trust in You. I believe I can live an exciting, fruitful life for You. I want to glorify Your name. I want to shout Your name out loud through my life.

Because of You, love, my life’s changed.
Because of You, love, I’m saved.
Because of You, love, I am given a second chance to live life again.
Because of You, love, I found joy.
Because of You, love, I know the meaning to life.
Because of You, love, I live.
Because of You, love, I love.

&lovin' Bb at 8:38 PM♥

New Year Resolution 2007

Friday, January 05, 2007

I believe that year 2007 will be a very exciting year for me. There will be a lot of challenges ahead, many changes will take place.

I’m really looking forward to it.

This year, I want to accomplish more things. I want to go back to study. My initial plan is to go back study design first. But currently, I have not found any design school that offer part time studies. Now I am determined to go back and study Japanese. This time, I want to study in long term basis. I want to study till I get JLPT 2 at least. I think this will take at least 2 years to complete.

Taking Japanese is good, so if in future, I also can have a back up plan. I can apply for jobs that required to converse in Japanese.

Besides study, I want to go back to dance too. Yesterday I asked Pui to teach me some dance steps. I can’t even dance a decent 2 eights. Oh man, I really got to pick up my dance again. If not I can never become a dancer.

This year, I also want to lose weight. Still got quite a few areas that’s quite fat. If I don’t work hard now, I will definitely regret when I get old. Haha..

This year is my 21st year alive on this earth. Really want to have a different birthday celebration. Currently still trying to crack my head on how can I celebrate my birthday. Any suggestions?

Now still planning my detailed new year resolution. Really want to make this year count.

&lovin' Bb at 10:35 PM♥

New Year's Day

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

It’s new year’s day!! Praise the Lord! Is year 2007! Wishing all of you a very very happy new year!!

I really did not sleep the whole night, cause still need to rush out something for the thanksgiving cell group later.

Supposed to meet Kel earlier at Yishun, but end up didn’t really meet early. Anyway, I brought all the barang barang to the Condo. Quite a few hic-ups happened. The photo frames, some are damaged. But thank God I have some markers on hand, at least will not look ugly. Hee.. Next time I don’t want to buy paint from that brand anymore. Humph!

We played some games; had worship, preaching of the word, then thanksgiving.

Valor really preached a good word, talking about how to live a successful life in the days ahead. Really challenged me to work harder for my future.

During thanksgiving, we have a little prize giving ceremony. I got nominated for quite a few items, haha.. Think I am one of the few who got nominated for the most number of times. Haha..

I after that we go around to thank other people, I pass some little cards to some of the people there. Initially want to do more things as gifts, but really no time to do it. So I just write the cards. Haha..

After the cell group, we went to north point to eat. When I was on the way to north point, I suddenly realized that I have not eaten the whole day. Haha.. Too busy and I forgot about it!

But when we reached the food court, really have no appetite to eat, end up Zi Shen, Adrian and Xiu Wen finished up all than half of my food.

After that, we went to ang mo kio to play pool. I watched them play only. Cause that time I don’t really feel very well, and I was quite tired.

They played for about 2 hours, didn’t know that some are really good gamers. Stunned.

And after that, when we making our way out, thinking where to go next, suddenly feel energetic.

Many times when I’m tired, I will be in zombie state for a while. After I passed that zombie state, I’ll be super hyper active. I can get crazy at times when I’m real tired. Haha.. I wonder where I have the spare energy from.

We decided to go kel’s house to stay for the night.

Valor, Min Kuan, Zi Shen, Ling and me went to his house. Watched death note 1, ate some maggie mee, bread, and also played some board games. It’s really fun. This is the first time I don at other people’s place. It’s real cool.

Left his house at about 7 in the morning. Took a bus back. Slept at around 8plus, woke up at 12. I can’t believe that I woke up in such short time. Two day’s didn’t sleep already. Now I’m still feeling alright. Haha..

&lovin' Bb at 7:01 PM♥

New Year Eve 2006

Monday, January 01, 2007

On new year's eve, Sunday, went out with Jennifer, Madeleine, Zi Shen, and Adrian. We met at Clarke Quay for dinner.

We sat at the outdoor eating area, just beside Singapore River. It’s really beautiful. I ordered a very delicious dish, it’s sea bass wrapped with paper, with tomato and some other spices. I really fell in love with this dish. The fish is very fresh, the tomato sauce enhances the aroma and flavor of the food. And the portion is really big. I really couldn’t finish. But Zi Shen and Adrian help to finish up my food. They can really eat!

The price of the dish is affordable, total is around $26. Really want to go back there again to eat, it’s really nice.. I give a 5 stars out of 5!!

After that, we walked to dhoby ghalt, took a few interesting pictures.

We passed by Singapore Museum. There is a countdown party there too! We really didn’t know Singapore Museum got such cool hangout area.

We stayed there till about 11pm, and we made our way to The Cathay. We’re watching midnight show, ‘The Night at the Museum’

If Zi Shen did not promote this show, I don’t think I will watch it. Cause my initial perception of this show is not good. I thought it’s just another kid’s show. But this movie is really very enjoyable, far better than what I expected.

We have our ‘countdown’ when we’re in the movie theatre. Interesting huh. Haha..

After the show, we roamed around along the streets and we took a short rest at Singapore National Library.

Saw a few of our zone’s friends there too! The world’s so small.

We took the night rider back. Reached home at around 5plus in the morning. Actually I could reach home earlier, but looking the streets are so empty, did a short prayer walk while walking back. Hee..

I really enjoyed the outing, although I’m really tired.

Didn’t manage to sleep on that day, cause need to rush out things for the thanksgiving cell group the next day. I wonder whether I can survive the next day. Haha..

&lovin' Bb at 5:43 AM♥

nonsense.