Living for a new tomorrow.

Pen and Paper

Thursday, June 29, 2006

haha.. today is really fun! about 2 plus in the afternoon.. the server of my department down all of e sudden.. we can't get into the internet at all.. kinda shocked.. haha..

then my colleague pass me a stack of empty forms.. it's for us to take down e details of the customers in case they call.. wow.. really never tried this before.. i wonder how will things turn out..

then shortly after the server down, there are quite a number of calls.. haha.. and i really take down e notes seriously. cause i can't check the details on my computer screen.. so if i take e details wrongly.. i might not be able to contact the customer later.

most of the customer are very kind.. i told them our company server is down at the moment.. they are very patient with me.. and they gave me as much details as possible.. i really thank God that there are so many nice people around.

but there is one particular customer called.. and their attitude is really bad. they demand the engineer to go down and help them out now.. but we really trying our best to help all the customers in the shortest time.. and they sort of scolded me for that.. at first i felt that why i am the one get scolded.. but after that i start to learn to step into their shoes and think for them.. ya.. their business operation is affected.. of course they'll be angry..

i understand how they felt.. it's really difficult to be in a situation like this. they said,' i don't care that your system is not working.. that's your problem.. i don't need to bare e problem also.. ' and they really sound angry.. haha.. but i'm not angry la.. i know how they felt.. if i'm in e same situation.. i'll be angry too.. haha..

but after that.. the system is up le.. so happy.. haha.. today had a great day.. learnt how to write faster .. haha..

&lovin' Bb at 11:37 PM♥

Time to let go and let God

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

today alot of things happened. but i really thank God for today. i really learnt alot of things..

firstly, in work, today really have alot of calls.. kinda busy for the whole day. and i work till i'm among the last to go home in my department.. think i work slow la... must train myself to work faster..

and i also need to learn how to speak more professionally. everytime i hear serene speak.. cool la.. she's sound so experienced. so cool.. really want to learn from her.. she's really a very nice lady.. i like her.. haha..

after work i went for leader's meeting. on the way there, i met up with jennifer and bro valor.. we travel together.. jennifer alight at jurong east..

me and bro valor went to the coffee shop near church and we ate dinner.. and we met cheng jun there too.. haha..

after that bro valor say he wanna take something.. then cheng jun and us parted. me followed bro valor to outside his house.. i told him something that kept with me for quite sometime.. feeling kinda guilty not to let him know.. actually nothing much la.. just to inform him about something.. haha.. after telling.. felt so much better.. haha.. cool..

we make our way to the meeting.. today sis jo's zone is joining the meeting with us. cool.. so many leaders come together.. sis jo went overseas.. so JOL will join us for this week.

it's been quite some time since JOL leaders join us.. kinda miss them.. haha..

pastor talked about quite a number of things.. we had some brainstorming sessions.. it's really inspirational.. can really see the passion in pastor to realy want to grow the zone.

after that we prayed together.. wow.. the presence of God is strong.. it really felt different when all the leaders gathered together and pray.. within minutes and we have step into the presence of God. i simply love this..

during worshipping, felt that the Lord speaking to me for quite a number of things... i was so blessed.. i felt that the Lord telling me that He knows my weakness, He knows my anxieties, He understand how i felt when i went through valley experiences. i felt that He's telling me that whatever questions i have for the future, whatever doubts and fear i have, leave it unto Him.. i need to learn how to trust in Him more.. i didn't trust God enough..

Felt that He's telling me that He has already planned everything for me. all i need to do is to continue to trust in Him, in His provision. Let go and let God. all the questions that i have just need time to reveal everything to me... God is beautiful in His time. He's never early nor late.. He'll always be on time.. i just need to wait for the correct timing to come..

Let go and let God..

after hearing that.. i felt relief.. felt that all my burdens are lifted up..been thinking of many things these past few days.. i have not been myself for these few days.. but i'm back to normal now.. by the grace of God.. i'm so happy..

really blessed today..

towards the end.. we need to do some admin work.. and shar wanna feedback on the cg evaluation she made two weeks ago.

she talked about quite a number of things..it's really edifying.. learnt alot from her.. really want to train myself to be able to speak better. this issue has been one of the main problem i faced.. i want to overcome this..

she talked about when we move in the spirit.. like prophesy and stuff.. what we should do and what we shouldn't do.. and she pointed out a few areas that we need to watch out for.. really learnt alot from her..

i really had a great day today.. i know that when i go to sleep today.. i'll be found guiltless.. hee.. i am going to learn to trust God more..

&lovin' Bb at 1:23 AM♥

Orientation @ Fuji Xerox

Monday, June 26, 2006

finally today.. after working for two weeks.. i had my orientation le.. haha.. today really is a relaxing day for me.. cause no need to work. just sit there whole day and do nothing.. love it man.. but it's kinda tiring at times..

and also need to remember alot of things.. haha..

and one of the HR people.. she's real funny.. she ask us to introduce ourselves.. and she ask all of us whether we are single and available or not.. haha.. think she's trying to matchmake people huh.. haha..

it's really very cool.. cause in my company.. there are alot of couples they got to know each other in the company, then get married and have kids.. coolness la.. haha..

but i definately will get my future boyfriend/husband in church.. felt that i should and i will meet him in church and not in office.. hee..hmm.. i wonder who will be that lucky guy.. haha.. the Lord will provide..

hey.. how come i wonder till so far? haha..

think i today really out of my mind.. what's happening to me sia? haha..

oh my.. think really very affected by my HR colleague today.. haha..

okay.. go back to the orientation.. haha.. the HR people shared with us the company history, culture, etc etc.. it's really very cool.. i simply love this company.. haha.. this company is really the coolest.. it's always one of my dream to work in a Japanese MNC.. maybe because i know a bit of Japanese language.. i really love Jap culture.. i simply love Japan! haha..

really want to go back to school someday to continue to learn japanese.. i wonder when will be the suitable time for me.. haha..

overall.. i really love Fuji Xerox.. haha.. love this company.. i'm proud to be in this company..

&lovin' Bb at 9:17 PM♥

Dance @ Orchard

Sunday, June 25, 2006

cool la.. today first time had performance without standing on stage.. haha.. really sort of the first time i have dance performance along the streets.. somemore at orchard road! haha..

it's really challenging for me.. cause when you dance there.. there are tourists, passerbys.. and maybe in the midst are those really dance experts.. haha..

and for ghetto queens, we don't have the full force.. at first we tried to change steps and change formations.. it's a disaster.. cause we really can't remember the steps.. and after that at the end of the two hours.. we dance another time.. now only left with 4 people.. and we dance without any formation.. we just any how stand.. haha.. and we used back the old steps.. it's even better.. haha.. so happy la.. haha..

but i totally enjoyed the two hours.. i got $10 for that two hours.. kinda cool.. haha..

after that we all went to E2MAX.. it's a place where people can book rooms.. and can play computer games.. xbox and stuff.. a room to yourself.. it's really very cool.. haha..

when i just reached the room, i saw one of the big tv is not occupied.. i wanted to play but e game is soccer.. wah.. never played before sia..

then ter came and teach me how to play.. wah.. totally lost.. but it's really exciting when your opponent didn't score goal.. haha.. now i understand why so many guys love to watch soccer.. haha.. i hope i will not fell in love with the game too much..

anyway.. the final score is 3-2.. i 3, ter 2.. haha.. surprised? haha..

actually we started playing when the score is 3-0.. i 3, ter 0.. and he scored 2 goals.. i didn't score at all.. don't know how to control the ball sia.. haha.. sadded.. but i still won.. thanks to the person who played before me.. haha.. england won!

really love the place man! next time must go back again..

&lovin' Bb at 10:01 PM♥

I love my CG!

this week is the last week jacky and pui joining our cg.. haha.. so happy for them that they get into project O.. you two are e coolest!

anyways.. i still think that my cg is the best! i thank God that i'm here with them.. W16 and N241 will always stand a big part of my life. without this cg.. i won't be where i'm at today. i believe that i'll continue to grow stronger and stronger in the Lord in this CG, in this church.. i know that everyday when i wake up.. i'll grow a little more like Him!

&lovin' Bb at 11:34 AM♥

The After Effects..

Thursday, June 22, 2006

oh no.. been feeling real tired today.. think is because of yesterday's dance class.. drained too much energy away already... today really felt really tired..
having headache again..

just now during work.. got quite alot of things to do.. been busy the whole day.. and there was one real nasty customer.. she slam the phone at my ears.. so sian.. i still have questions to ask her.. her colleague was so much nicer..

but i still love the job.. cause it's very challenging for me.. haha.. i don't believe that this job is too difficult for me..

&lovin' Bb at 11:10 PM♥

is there any way to continue to dance in church?

on tuesday.. when for leaders' meeting in church.. i saw the name list for project o in the things-to-do list.. i was shocked and puzzled.. really.. i was shocked that some people did not get in.. but i believe that God has already made an arrangement for them.. so that they can still dance for God no matter where they go..

then after the meeting.. think bro valor could see that i really want to be part of project o.. he ask me whether i still want to dance or not. i told him,'of course! i'm a dancer.. i can't live without dancing...'

he said he agree for me to continue dancing.. as long as i can do all the things that i'm supposed to do.. haha.. so happy..

but i can't join project o ma.. if i wanna join project o... then i can't join cg.. i don't it to be like this.. can i have both???

bro valor mention about dance ministry.. haha.. dance ministry.. seems so high up in the sky.. can i reach it? how to get from here to there? do i have the ability to do it?

i'll question myself. but currently what i know is that now only have opening for project o.. and the name list is already out.. no way i could join..

think e only way is to get into dance ministry.. but how to get in sia?? been rejected two years ago.. do i have the ability now?

bro valor ask me to quit choir.. been praying for this.. is this the correct time for me to leave?

anyway.. i'm a dancer and i'll always be.. may the Lord show me a way so that i can continue to dance for Him and shine for Him!

&lovin' Bb at 12:18 AM♥

WKM! My training target..

haha.. today just went WKM class.. haha.. it's so fun la.. thank God that came for this class.. cause Gin teach the same dance that she taught during project o audition.. haha.. thank God! i can have a chance to feel that dance too!

haha.. it's really tiring.. saw myself changed alot.. in terms of skills and feel.. last time i can't even dance with energy.. now can see myself improved alot.. of course still not enough.. haha..

then i saw one lady.. she's one of the student in the class.. she is really muscular.. kinda scary though.. haha.. but she can catch steps easily.. haha..

i love this genre... cause this genre trains me to get more accent in dancing.. dancing is not just doing the steps.. you need to feel it and express it out with the music.. haha..

i'm going to train WKM.. haha..been looking around for one type of dance that i can be strong at.. been searching around for a very long time.. think i have found it.. as for now la..hee..

i definately will be going back to that class again.. hee.. it's so fun.. but it's real tiring.. totally drained of all energy after the dance.. haha.. so tired when i got on the train.. haha.. been having a dance crave for so many days.. finally this craving being satisfied.. haha..

&lovin' Bb at 12:08 AM♥

Dancing is so cool.. i wanna dance too!

Sunday, June 18, 2006

Today i saw all my dearest friends dancing at O School.. for the Audition for Project O.. it's so fun..

feeling kinda wierd at first.. cause my purpose there is not for e audition.. is just a spectator.. but i'm a dancer too! i am and will always be..

so what i can do is to help as much as possible.. although i can't go in and dance.. but at least i can help pple to dance better..

at least.. that's the thing that i can do..

saw them all get into the studio.. saw all the different expressions.. different reactions in the dance studio.. felt happy for some.. felt sorry for some.. that's dance.. sometimes will forget the original steps.. but being a dancer.. no one knows your own steps except you.. you need to dance till the end.. even if you forgot steps..

that's what i felt.. you need to dance till the end.. enjoy your dance.. enjoy everytime you go on stage.. let every bit of your soul enjoy the beat of the music.. let your every part of your body groove with the music.. enjoy the dance!

saw them dancing.. it's so nice to see them dance.. it's really nice feeling.. so many memories came back.. memories of myself dancing not good enough, many times mad at myself, many times feeling depressed, many times can't catch steps fast.. feeling why i can't dance like those church dancers.. many times i simply hate myself of not being good enough..

thinking back.. so many things happened.. i thought i will stopped dancing.. i thought that i can't last through.. i thought that i will give up.. but i don't know why i'm still dancing.. haha.. praise God for that.. i'm still dancing!

dance is easy.. but if you want to make dance a part of your life.. it really takes alot of perserverance.. a never-give-up spirit!

but sometimes feeling kinda depressed that everyone is in that room dancing.. and you are outside.. watching.. i wanna join in too!

when i was outside the room.. some of the church dancers asked me why i don't join them.. hee..

i told one of them i don't want to join.. i told another one i got cg commitment.. hee..

after that.. i went to guitar class.. hee.. btw this week guitar class i really very lost.. first time lost in guitar class.. haha..

anyway.. after the class i go find them.. only 8 pple left.. haha.. many of them are tired.. can see from their faces.. haha

after that some left.. then me, aaron, terence, jacky and pui went SMU jam.. haha.. went there and aaron and terence play guitar.. they so cool la.. can play guitar until really nice..

then after that terence and pui man taught me e dance that they danced just now.. haha.. and both of them only showed me once.. as if i can remember so fast.. haha..

anyway after that we saw dhani beatbox.. he really v pro sia..

after that we went home.. haha..

had a great day.. had much fun! but i still wanna dance... wanna wanna wanna dance so much!

&lovin' Bb at 10:21 PM♥

To Dance or Not To Dance

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Today, bro wen khai called me.. ask me regarding project O... i told him i definitely will not be going. i got cell group...

thinking that .. reminds me of an event that happened two years ago when i first join Emerge talentime.. that time i was a younger Christian.. hmm... to me.. to be honest.. getting on stage to dance is a competition, goal is to get the prize and to perform for man..

my focus is not really dancing for God.. to be honest.. my focus is just want to dance.. dancing for who.. doesn't really matter to be..

maybe that time i just want to seek the approval of man.. to be able to perform in front of many.. think my focus was really wrong that time.. i thank God that my team did not win that year. cause really felt that if i win.. proud ness will just puff up within me..

and that year i joined dance ministry for one month. that month was something very unforgettable.. it's really stressed to be in dance ministry. especially you don't know the basic techniques.. and you just get in.. really suffers.. my confidence really depleted alot.. i thought that i'll never make it to dance..

but in my heart i want to continue to dance.. i want to get into dance ministry one more time..

but that time i really need to make a decision. Cell group or dance.. cell group or dance??

i prayed a lot.. many times i broke down before the Lord and cried about this.. i really don't know what i should do.. where should i pursue after..
i struggled that for a very long time.. e feeling is unbearable.. really want to give up both and just leave this place..

but after that.. i made a decision one night when i was having my quiet time.. i told God that i want to be a CGL someday. i want to do His works. i don't want to go according to my flesh. i want to be a person that He wants me to be..

that's really a tough decision.. i thank God that He gave me the strength to pull thru this...

but two years after that.. I’m facing the same situation now.. feeling what i felt two years ago.. this time is project o.. being a dancer.. going in project o would be something that is expected.. haha.. going there is a place that you can really dance..

for myself.. these two years of training really changed my life as a person. now when i go on stage. i know that i will have the best audience around.. no matter where i go.. even if no man sees.. i know God sees.. God will definitely like my dance.. I’m dancing for Him.. whatever position i have doesn't really matters.. i am happy that joyous perfection won.. they really deserve it.. all girls team is difficult to win.. unless all the girls has e same style of dancing and is very coordinated...

whatever people say that i am doesn't matter to me anymore.. i just wanna dance.. this time is for God.. even no one applause for us.. it's alright with me... i just want to treasure every single time that i can dance for Him.. i know that in future, i will not have such chance anymore.. felt sad.. but God has already called me to do something else.. i want to move on..

that feeling that i had two years ago came back.. i am feeling like i really want to dance some more.. but i know that i need to be here in CG..
it's not about other opinion that where i should go.. i felt that God really wants me to stay in the CG.. i doesn't felt the peace in my heart to go for project o..

just now i went out for a while to go to get some paints from dorin.. hmm... suddenly have this thinking.. imagine myself in heaven's gate one day.. standing there waiting for God to pass me my report book of my life..

maybe in my lifetime, i became a really great dancer.. in my lifetime.. received many applause, many honour, many other glory.. i am standing there.. maybe i'm waiting all the heavens to applause for me one more time..

then when God pass me my report book.. i was shocked.. realizing that whatever i pursue whole of my life is totally not what God has intended you to be.. what a terrible day it would be..

God will not force us to become what He want us to be.. whatever decision we made.. He let us go.. He let us have the liberty to make our own decisions.

what a terrible day it would be.. knowing that I have wasted all my life on something that has add no value to my life at all.. no lives impacted.. and i didn't live out to my fullest potential.

i don't want to make such mistakes.. i don't have much time.. i only have like a hundred year's time.. this few years.. i want to be what God wants me to be.. i want to get to heaven someday and God tell me that,' good and faithful servant...'

i want to serve people.. bringing them into the kingdom of God.. i want to impact their lives.. teaching them the ways of the Lord..

i want to be able to declare during my last breath that i have finish the race.. i have kept the faith.. i have completed every single thing that God called me to be..

i love dance.. i really do.. but i know that God's calling is far greater than anything else. i chose to be a CGL for Him.. i never regreted.. i'll never regret.. i know that this path is the more challenging one.. but i want to pass my test of my life.. i want my report book in heaven to be 'excellent'..

&lovin' Bb at 2:26 AM♥

me n photoshop

Friday, June 16, 2006

these few days been trying on the photoshop.. really got alot of configerations.. i don't know how to use that program..

haha.. i just explore around and manage to do something out of it..

hee.. my first few creations are kinda normal..

then the last one i made.. which is yesterday.. is very colourful one.. i like it alot.. hee..

this is the colourful one that i told you about.. hee.. i didn't know when i get blue hair is so cool.. haha.. but i don't think i'll ever dye this colour.. haha..

&lovin' Bb at 6:50 PM♥

YEAH!! Weekend!

i simply love weekend.. hee.. finally one week of working over.. hee. so looking forward to weekend. really felt tired physically.. been having headache and cough for so many days.. really sick and tired of it..

but i really thank God that He really blessed me with such wonderful colleagues at work.. hee..

next week i'm going to take calls by myself.. i wonder what will happen.. hee.. hopefully i'll not get alot of trouble makers.. haha.. sometimes it's really sad if you meet those nasty and unreasonable customers.. before i take this job.. i never knew that works controller really need to meet alot of pple a day.. and it will really hurts them sometimes when they meet real nasty customers.

through this job.. i've learnt how to talk to pple on the phone in a more professional, friendly way.. haha.. maybe next time if you happen to talk to me on e phone.. i might sound sweeter to you.. haha..

&lovin' Bb at 6:37 PM♥

I'm in love.. i want to be with him

hee.. ya.. i'm in love.. in love with a person.. i know that he loves me too...

when i not feeling well.. he's always there to comfort me..and gives me e strength and encouragement me and push me further..

when i don't know what i should do.. he's there to guide me and show me the way to do things..

when i am in need of a person to share my heart with.. he's the greatest listening ear that i could ever imagine..

when i am lack of direction in life.. he's just like my light house, he's always there to shine the path ahead of me.. i'll never be afraid anymore..

i know.. he's thinking about me every single day.. and i'm thinking about him every now and then..

i will be heart broken without him.. although i didn't known him for long.. but since i got to know about him.. every day of my life is always full of joy..

everytime when i am not around him.. my heart ache.. really ache literally sometimes.. really long to keep fellowshipping with him and get to know him more..

he's so talented.. such a genius.. that's what my talents can't be compare with..

i love him so much

never loved anyone so much in my life...

i'm not afraid to declare this.. i know that he'll definately accept me.. he always accept me for who i am..

he's the only one that i will trust.. i know that when i'm with him.. my future is secured..

i love him..

so much that i'll regret forever that one day if i left him..

i got to know him.. i'll never let him go..

his name is

Holy Spirit..

he's my comforter, my guide, my strength, my wisdom, my all..

he's always so good to me.. when i'm alone.. and at the lowest point of my life.. he's there to tell me to move on and step out of this situation..

when i'm weak.. so weak that i want to give up everything.. he's there to give me the strength.. i love him

&lovin' Bb at 12:31 AM♥

2nd day of work

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

i was late for work today.. so sad.. hee.. florence say very nicely that i cannot be late.. felt so paiseh.. only second day then late le.. hai..

today i managed to pick up some calls.. hee.. wah.. the first call was like.. feeling really stressed up.. hee.. must make sure that i sound alright.. hee..

after i made that call.. i was so happy.. but i just sit there and talk.. rebekah was the one who help me type everything.. hee..

then after that went to suntec.. walk around with rebekah.. hee.. it's really fun with her.. haha..

then after that went to meet with jeremy .. after that met bro valor at his office.. hee.. his office is much smaller than what i expected.. hee.. and his company pentry is soo nice.. got alot of food.. you won't die of hunger there.. hee..

after that went leader's meeting.. pastor talked to us about the zone, about being a CGL and many other stuff.. feel convicted and i wanna do more things for God in cell group ministry.. just felt that i didn't really do enough to help to grow and strengthen the cell group.

then after that i went home le.. hee.. i had a great day today. felt that i gain a bit more experience today.. looking forward to tomorrow..

&lovin' Bb at 12:48 AM♥

first day of work

Monday, June 12, 2006

hai.. today is first day of work.. kinda stressful sia.. got so many things need to remember..

feel kinda wierd when i walk with all the rest of the working pple during morning.. hee.. really kinda wierd.. i couldn't get used to it..

i went to the office.. florence is so nice.. she explained very detailed of many many things about the organization.. about my job scope and stuff.. she's really a nice lady..

these few days i'm supposed to be attached to a person.. this person will show me how the daily operation should be run.. ie. on the job training..

then this person is rebekah.. she's a nice lady too! could see that she's real exp in her job.. and she really efficient too.. hee.. and she explain the things very clearly.. just that i can't really remember at all.. many times i just totally switched off.. hee.. so bad..

anyway.. most of the time i'm listening la.. just that i really can't remember a thing of what she's talking about.

during lunch time.. jeremy came over to my department.. he quietly stood behind me.. wah.. scary sia.. anyway.. jennifer and her colleague waited outside of my department.. hee.. we went to carl's jr to eat lunch..

find that these few days don't have much appetite.. eat v little and i'm very full.. don't know why..

we took a bus down to raffles place area.. and the restuarant is smaller than what i expected actually.. we bought two meals.. and we share among ourselves.. can see that after e meal.. jeremy still hungry.. after that he bought some snacks for himself..

my break only 45 mins la.. so sad.. after lunch i need to really rush back.. it's so far from e office.. i don't wanna to be late ma.. scared later they say i first day play punk.. haha..

i managed to rush back.. but still abit late la.. they ask me where i go.. they are amazed that i can go carl's jr and come back in time.. haha...

anyway.. after lunch.. i sit in with rebekah till she off work.. it's really fun sitting in with her.. learnt alot from her.. she's really a nice lady.. she work this job for 2-3 years already la.. that's her first job too ..haha.. cool sia...

anyway.. i can release early too!! i left office at 5:20 like tt.. hee.. then before we leave.. she bring me to the show room to look at the 1.6 mil printing machine.. it's so big ar! but last time i went to wincor nixdorf.. i saw one more bigger.. can literally see the paper fly around in the machine.. their printers is so cool la.. i'll be very proud if i own such a printer.. hee..

anyway after that i head for the mrt station with rebekah.. hee.. she going city hall to meet her friend.. i go bugis..

supposed to meet a customer at 7.. hai~ nothing to do from 5:45 to 7..

so i roam around at bugis junction.. wah.. think really long time never go shopping le.. ey.. think e last time i did that was..ey.. last year?? roam around at bugis junction.. wah.. couldn't find anyone to accompany me.. sadness.. that hour is sooooooooooo long .. so long..

feel like singin that song.. lonely .. i'm so lonely .. blah blah blah.. watever..

okay.. 7pm finally came.. haha.. praise the Lord.. hee.. i met the customer at bugis cafe.. and he pass me his shirt and pants.. ask me to help him decorate.. haha.. stress sia.. think his expectation is quite high..

after that went to have dinner with my whole family.. hee.. we went to chef chan's restaurant.. hee..

pa ordered alot of things.. got beef, quail, fish, vege, noodle.. etc.. really alot.. almost can't finish my food...hee..

i like the beef best.. reminds me of the japanese restaurant i went in shanghai.. that restaurant got buffet dinner.. cost about 20 sing dollars.. and one of the menu is stir fried beef.. the standard is about the same.. e meat is just as nice.. just that e one i ate today is black pepper beef.

e one i ate in shanghai is sooo nice.. i ordered alot that time.. eat tons of it.. cause it's buffet.. heee..

anyway.. overall e ambience of chef chan's restaurant is nice.. not those typical chinese restaurant.. there is kind of a fusion.. hee.. kind of different..

and mum spent 179 for e meal.. woah.. v ex.. and they gave us a $10 voucher .. encourage us to go back eat again.. haha.. think if i go back i'll just buy tt beef dish.. hee..

had a great day..

&lovin' Bb at 11:48 PM♥

My Little Creations!

Saturday, June 10, 2006

Hey guys.. let me introduce my latest blog! 'My Little Creations' !

this blog is where i put almost all that i have experienced in my biz.. all the designs, the changes, things we gone through.. hee..

please feel free to go take a look..

the webby is http://mylittlecreations.blogspot.com/

can link it in your own blog too!

loves
man

&lovin' Bb at 12:16 PM♥

Photos at NYP

Here are the pics taken at the NYP fair..

this pic is one of my artistic creations.. hee.. one of the NYP friend gave me his pants to do splash paint.. hee.. i charged him $5 only.. cheap hor.. he liked the pants alot.. but acutally i anyhow painted.. hee .. ( think many people will come and kill me.. hee.. )

here are some of the pictures of the stall..

hee.. small but interesting i suppose.. hee..

anyway.. had a great time at NYP.. got to know a few new friends.. and i also spotted many friends in NYP..haha.. coolness..

these are the pic taken on friday.. we wrapped up the whole stall.. heee..

end of biz...

empty racks and tables.. oh.. i will miss this place.. i wonder when i could have a chance to do this again.. maybe when i start my own biz.. hee.. maybe.. hee..

&lovin' Bb at 10:59 AM♥

NYP Fair Last day

Actually i'm not supposed to go to NYP on friday.. my shift is only on thurs.. but i still got one t shirt haven't paint yet.. so still must go..

actually i felt that NYP is really a nice school to be at.. hmm.. but i think i'll get lost.. ey.. NYP got 2 food courts only is it?? i only found two.. hee..

i reach that place at 1:30 like that.. before that i was at Fuji Xerox.. to meet the HR personnel to get the necessary documents for me to start work on monday.. looking forward to monday!

anyway.. wah.. when i reach the place.. woah.. the place was totally......... empty.. hee.. really not much people came on friday.. then i saw Wei Liat was talking to the in-charge of the fair, Asher.. btw Asher can really sing.. i heard he going to have his own CD soon.. so cool.. too bad i can't sing as nice.. hee..

anyway.. i started painting.. actually last night i'm suppose to finish that shirt too.. but i realised i made a mistake.. thurs really a bad day for me.. i broke record two times in a day.. before thurs.. i can declare that i never made a mistake in painting shirts.. after thurs.. i can only say i made only less than 1% mistake.. hee..

the shirt that i'm painting on friday is Cassendra's shirt.. i just got to know her on thurs.. cause she wanna draw a shirt for her CGL.. then when i was taking her orders.. she said she wanna write '#1. CGL' on the back part of the shirt. i recognise the short form.. but i not sure.. then she continue that she wanna put 'E308' at the front of the shirt..

that time i was thinking,' aiya.. she sure from city harvest one la' then i just ask her.. and she was kind of shocked.. haha..

okay.. back to friday.. she's really very nice.. she said it's okay.. so i change the original idea.. i put E308 at the back and i put '#1. CGL' in front.. hee..

but i made a effort to draw super nice for her.. hee.. so i paint quite slow la.. painting for about half and hour and i'm done... hee..

i finished everything about 2:30. okay.. i'm bored.. nothing to do.. then we just had chit chat with the students there who are organising the whole fair loh.. found out that many are working for free.. so sad..

anyway.. we packed the place at 3:30.. i helped wei liat to carry some of the leftover goods to his van (the rest need to leave in NYP, the lecturer say wanna have stock take.. oh well.. need to come back again).. then we made our way back to the school.. and i saw Sis Ma.. she saw me too.. we said hi.. and she asked me whether i'm coming to class.. i laugh.. her reaction is so cute.. i told her i'm selling things in the school.. she's kinda surprised.. hee..

okay.. we continue to walk back to school.. now then i realised that i know alot of NYP harvesters.. woah.. think at least got about 10 i think.. hee..

Wei Liat and I tried to act like NYP students.. so we said we must not act blur.. haha.. walk around must look confident.. haha.. we went to food junction first.. then we went to another food court which is opposite.. but we decided to walk back.. cause food junction got air con.. oh well.. i'm wearing a jacket.. if i took it off will be too cold.. hee.. so sad huh.. actually i got formal shirt.. but it look okay in tanjong pagar.. but when i come to NYP, think everybody will think i'm a wierdo.. haha..

anyway.. we made our way back to food junction.. he bought chicken rice and some blue berry pearls drink.. i bought a hot milo.. i don't feel like eating.. and throughout the time with wei liat.. he keep focusing on one topic: BGR.. hai~ i seldom talked about this area.. and he's sooooo curious.. then he asked questions like,'got how many people 'woo' you or ask you out before?? why still haven't find a boyfriend? your standard too high is it?? ...'

hai~ how come he seems like more urgent than me.. haha.. so i ask back about his relationship with Dorin.. i asked him what he like about Dorin, he couldn't say.. he just felt a love for her.. couldn't describe that love out.. he funnie..

but i could see both of them really enjoyed being with each other la.. i'm so happy that both of them met and became couples.. give them my blessings~

some times it's kinda sad.. doing biz with wei liat and dorin.. so i need to be the lightbulb all the time.. haha.. everytime i told them that i'm so paiseh to be there all the time.. dorin always tell me jokingly that she's used to it.. haha..

but i really enjoyed having a partnership with them.. hee..

back to food junction.. so i answered him all the questions that he soooo wanna ask for long time... haha.. he asked that why people come and ask me out and i refused.. i answered that i felt that since i don't want to have a relationship more than a normal friend, i don't want to make him think too much.. i don't want end up make the person waste his time on me.. anyway.. not much such examples la.. so it's still okay for me..

haha.. and i think wei liat must have thought of all the questions before hand.. all his questions are so difficult to answer.. haha..

few of the most difficult questions he asked was,'take a scenerio, if you like a guy, will you go to the person and declare your love for him? so if one guy approach you and said that he like you.. what will you do?'

those questions are soooo hard to answer.. hee.. actually i really don't know how to answer.. but i still gave him an answer..

i told him that even when i like one person soooo much ar.. i will not take e initiative to make such confession.. hee.. personally that one is really an impossible task for me..haha.. too difficult.. i tried before.. i used to like a person for sooo long.. ey.. think really quite long la.. at least 5 years.. hee.. but i never tell him that i liked him.. until now i think he don't know.. anyway.. that's the past..

making such confessions is really not part of my personality.. hee.. maybe later part of my life i will la.. maybe when i continue to change to be more 'outgoing'.. maybe i will.. but now.. ey.. impossible.. haha..

anyway.. as for the second question.. about what will i do if a guy make his confession to me personally.. hmm.. should i write here? should i? should i? think better not answer this one... if you guys wanna know.. approach me personally k?? hee..

oh man.. what a day.. and i'm supposed to meet Nikz at 5.. i know what wei liat is thinking.. being his classmate for 3 years.. i know what he's thinking.. so he gave me a very evil smile.. oh well.. then just nice Nikz came over.. then we three make our way out to school.. as we are at the atrium.. wei liat make his way to the carpark.. as he left.. he made that evil smile again.. oh my gosh.. so paiseh sia..

anyway..Pui called.. she ask me to buy Sun's album for her.. but i don't have cash.. haha.. and after that she told me she'll be coming down to buy herself.. haha.. she really want to listen to Sun's song so eagerly.. haha.. think she really a model Sun's fan. haha..

Nikz supposed to go to make up cell at Hougang, 6pm.. Sis Meiyi cell group. and the worst thing happened that his hp no batt.. so sad sia.. and i'm rushing home for cg later.. so we make our way to MRT station.. although that walk was only about 5 minutes.. but it's e coldest walk ever!! really.. not kidding you.. it's even colder when i was in shanghai, one of the winter nights.. i am supposed to go to my 'home' and it was raining sooo heavily.. and the wind is so strong... i could hard the umbrella.. and we 4 girls stood there for quite some time.. and we jump about.. cause really too cold.. 15 degrees! and plus wind blow is even worse..

okay.. i always thought that night was the coldest night.. but Nikz really broke the record. he can say so plainly that,' when i go out with my friends, i'll ask them to wear more clothes...' oh my.. faint.. he's really so lame la.. okay.. if Nikz here he'll definately say massage leg.. hai~

we parted at the MRT station.. hee.. but when i got to platform i thought that i can actually lend him my hp to call sis Meiyi.. hee.. think too late la..

overall.. had a great time at NYP.. haha..

&lovin' Bb at 9:45 AM♥

SOT SOT SOT!!

next year's SOT is only 4 and a half months.. and it's only half way, and not full day.. i heard from bro valor that they have took out all the quest speakers.. so only require 4 and a half months to complete the course.. woah.. it's so cool la.. then i can go SOT then quickly go back to my work le..

been thinking of going SOT for long time.. i think next year is really a good year for me.. cause i just started on my career.. so easier for me to leave.. hai~ but i'll not work at fuji xerox for one year.. aww.. don't have bonus.. hee.. nvm la.. going bible school more important..

still remember last time when i am a younger christian, i felt that bible school is really not for me.. i am scared that my faith is not big enough.. then if i am ask to preach, to do signs and wonders, if miracles did not happen in my life.. then how?? haha.. of course i'm thinking that now la.. i know that if i believe in His word, God will surely somehow provide for me in the perfect timing. i will have this confidence that somehow God will make those supernatural things come to pass.. hee..

really looking forward to SOT next year.. i'm still praying to confirm.. hee.. think they already started registration soon .. hee..

&lovin' Bb at 9:29 AM♥

Emerge Last day part two

Friday, June 09, 2006

&lovin' Bb at 6:48 PM♥

Emerge Last day part one

The last day of Emerge is sooo exciting! hee..

really loved it.. here are some of the pictures taken after the emerge conference ends..

most of the pictures here are taken with the talentime finalists.. and some of my beloved SP friends..

they are really sweet and nice people.. hee.. love them alot.. i simply love this year's emerge conference..

not just experience the power of God so great, but i also got to know many many new friends.

Especially my talentime friends.. this year's talentime is way better.. although got some familiar faces.. but the experience is totally different.. hee..

&lovin' Bb at 6:28 PM♥

i hate falling sick!

oh man.. these few days been feeling terrible.. i don't like this.. on wed morning i start to have serious headache.. then after that at nite.. i start to have fever.. then i met jennifer, jacky, pui, mabel, and wei ye to go home together.. woah.. really feeling terrible.. i slept all the way from marina bay to admiralty.

then they commented that my hands and face is kinda red.. i saw it too.. i feel warm but once i stepped into air con place i felt super cold..

they went to macdonalds' to eat supper.. me totally no appitite.. ordered a hot milo ..(actually i only knew that mac got sell hot milo till wed.. hee.. kinda slow)

anyway.. the milo is nice.. but at the bottom of the cup.. the milo powder is soooooo satuated.. eww.. disgusting..

hee.. although not feeling well.. i never fail to 'steal' some of the fries and nuggets from them.. hee..

then yesterday i need to be at NYP.. selling things.. the same biz that i've been doing.. felt that i really sick and tired of painting words.. cause i can paint pictures le.. i have already moved on.. words are kinda elementary.. but NYP do't let us sell expensive stuff. so we only bring in words there..

NYP is really a beautiful school.. on the outside.. ey.. at least look much better than SP.. hee... but i still like SP though.. hee

i saw nick there.. woah.. managed to take a peep at his notes.. woah.. really super chim sia.. during o levels i hated physics and A maths.. so difficult.. but nick's notes is far more more more chim than mine.. salute him! i really admired engineering students... they managed to survive so long.. really have gifts of long suffering.. haha

anyway.. i saw xiao xian and theresa too! xiao xian still as pretty in school.. hee.. love her.. she kinda shocked to see me.. haha..

and theresa is also very cool.. she is one of the model of the fashion show.. i think she's the best model in the whole show... honestly i find that some of the models there got some problem in walking.. look kinda wierd on stage.. hee..

the NYP experience is fun.. know a few friends there.. hee.. and got some biz too!

i not sure whether next time got such lobang not.. going to work next week le.. looking forward to it.. cough cough.. (argh.. hope the .. cough cough.. will end soon.. cough cough.. )

hee.. cough.. gtg .. need to go fuji xerox do something.. need to sign some documents.. and later need to go back NYP to finish some shirts.. hee..

i pray that i'll get well soon! i will! (declare by faith)

&lovin' Bb at 11:02 AM♥

Photos behind stage one

Sunday, June 04, 2006

&lovin' Bb at 11:22 AM♥

Talentime Finals

Hey!! Ghetto Queens.. i'm so proud of the team.. every single team mate is AWESOME!! I simply love all of them.. hee..

the performance i feel that it's really good.. but we really can be better.. think we too stressed ba.. hee.. first time performing in such a big crowd..

although i am in choir, i've seen the crowd many times bigger than the crowd in Talentime.. but i just felt different. cause when i'm in choir, the focus is not on us.. but during the performance yesterday, every single pair of eyes is on us.. hee..

and maybe because this is my last year i'm going to join talentime ba.. felt that i really need to do my best that i can be..

for me personally, winning is an additional bonus for me.. i just wanna dance.. not for fame, not for own glory.. i just wanna use my little talents that i have to serve Him, to glorify Him. really prayed that through us, people will be inspired and willing to rise up to use their talents to glorify God too.. that's what i really felt.. but of course.. some tint of competition mindset is still in me.. hee...

anyway.. i really love this year talentime finalist.. especially the dance people.. all of them are awesome.. although we are supposed to compete with each other.. but behind those stage.. we really love each other..i really love being with them..

through this talentime.. i got to know alot new friends.. hee.. although we didn't win.. but i'm happy.. i felt happy for them.. they really deserved this prize..

anyway.. after the talentime.. i'm realy tired.. physically.. never felt so tired before.. felt like taking a good rest.. honestly.. during praise, i already felt so tired.. even during praise.. my spirit really want to seek for God.. but my body is really too tired to summon any strength to stand up..

but the service really very good.. the presence of God is soooo strong.. i felt refreshed.. but still feeling tired..

i really enjoy the whole day.. i love to dance, i love to spend time in the presence of God..

&lovin' Bb at 10:38 AM♥

EMERGE 2006 Day one

Friday, June 02, 2006

it's really cool!! today is the starting of the emerge conference.. it's a youth conference that i am looking towards to for so long.. hee.. so happy.. hee.. anyway.. todae i had parade of school performance.. it's a cheer leading competition.. hee.. it's so fun.. this is the first year i join POS.. hee..

i think this year SP really improved alot in standard.. hee.. bcos i'm there.. hee.. no la..i'm really happy that i'm part of this great team. although i can't be there to train everytime.. hee.. but i enjoyed being with them.. hee..

the performance was so cool.. i saw pastor kong, pastor aries.. sitting at the front row.. could see that they and the congregation really enjoyed the performance.. hee.. so happy..

anyway.. the make up was really loud!! i never got so much glitter on my head before.. hee.. glitter like no need money.. anyway.. and they use the gel like wooh.. really use alot.. hee..

and i also act as a part time make up artist.. hee.. help people make up.. i think it's time for me to learn how to draw guys make up.. hee.. cause i only know how to draw girl's kind of make up.. and i help lucas make up.. oh.. he's so pretty.. hahaha..

one of the friend commented that i draw make up till very nice.. haha.. so happy.. :)

and the whole event was really very happy, fun, cool, enjoyable.. although i made some mistakes here and there.. but not all people spot those mistakes.. hee..

the first pic is taken after the service.. me with sylvia and bryna.. hee.. they helped me alot.. they really spent time to teach me e dance at soooo last minute.. hee.. really want to thank them here.. hee..

this second pic is taken after i got home.. hee.. wanna take my make up down.. hee.. i don't think i will have the chance to draw that kind of make up again.. hee.. thanks nick and lucas for drawing that red colour pattern.. hee..

&lovin' Bb at 1:42 AM♥

work.. at fuji xerox

Thursday, June 01, 2006

hee.. on tuesdae i went inteview. i went to fuji xerox towers.. hee.. then i went to level 37..

but i was wondering how come i need to come to level 37.. cause that level is FX asia pacific.. i am supposed to go to FX singapore..

bro valor sent me a map.. there gave instruction that i need to go level 37 to meet someone..

then when i got there.. the person direct me to a interview room..

then i wait there for some time.. then another person came.. she said i went to the wrong place.. i was shocked.. then i call bro valor.. he didn't pick up call e first time.. that lady called using the office phone..

i was really shocked.. cause i really didn't expect this to happen.. then he pick up e call.. then he sae i went to e wrong place.. i was like -_-

you didn't tell me at all loh.. you just send me e map.. inside got that info ma.. ............

sian diao..

super sian diao..

then i was instructed to go to level one.. the reception area.. so ma lu la..

then i write down all e info and i was asked to go to level 3...

the lady i met is very nice..

i was really nervous at that time when i step into e office.. i dare not to look around beside following her..

she ask me quite alot of questions.. she said that from the resume.. i am an entrepreneur.. think she might be thinking that i will not stay long.. but i told her that one is a school project.. and i wanna get a stable job.. hee..

then she commented that this job is everytime on e phone.. so might not suit my personality.. but i assure her that i am experienced in serving customers.. and have a passion for it.. and i wanna get that job...

she explained the whole system to me.. what i need to do for that job and stuff.. hee

the whole interview lasted for 1 hour..hee..i didn't expect the interview to be soooooooo long..

hee.. she told me they will let me know the results today..

i got in!!

anyway.. after that i meet jeremy, jennifer, kel for lunch.. heee.. we went to a hawker nearby.. hee.. then kel's colleague jason came.. jennifer's usher friend, faith came too.. hee.. we get two tables and we eat.. e food there is really cheap.. 2 bucks.. feels like school canteen...

then dunno why kel keep suanning me.. everything that i do he keep suanning me........ irritating.. then thank God jeremy didn't do the same.. or i'll die..

then jennifer sick.. she insisited to go back to work.. worried for her when we parted.. scared she fainted half way.. she sae she need to meet perlie later to do e placard.. so no point leaving to home now..

wah.. so gan dong.. hee..

after lunch.. jeremy and kel send me back to mrt station.. hee.. they two hor.. really drive me nuts .. going crazy bcos of them..

but really enjoyed the day.. hee..

&lovin' Bb at 1:46 AM♥

nonsense.