I'm Back Home
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
Yeah.. finally.. I’m back home.. safely.. hehe.. no need to worry about me.. I’m alright.. hehe..
These few days has been very challenging for me.. before I go to the hospital.. I told myself.. just treat this as another chalet.. the days will pass by very fast.. don’t worry.. hehe…
Day 1 (Thursday)
Today.. I woke up early.. start to pack my stuffs… get ready to go to hospital.. I brought a lot of things.. really felt like going for a holiday like that…
My parents and pui accompany me to go to hospital.. we took a taxi there.. reached there at 1:30 exactly.. went “check-in” at the admin office.. got the ward at 2:30…
Then we walked to the ward.. is at Ward 58.. I saw Dr Yong there.. he called me the day before.. he say he’s supposed be in charge to take care of me and all the admin stuff.. he explained to my parents all the procedures that I need to go through these few days.. he said that tonight 12am onwards.. I’m not supposed to eat nor drink until the op is over.. even swallowing saliva also cannot.. cause if those food and water in my stomach was not being digested during the op.. it’ll be terrible.. cause during the op.. the stomach will stop functioning.. and the food and water will start to flow backwards towards my mouth.. if it get into my lungs.. I might need to stay in hospital for the next 2 weeks…
Then he also said the fastest I can go out of the hospital is Sunday morning.. no shorter.. but can be longer la.. hehe.. then he said that during Friday night I will stay in ICU…sounds serious huh.. hehe… if everything’s alright.. I can shift back to normal ward on Saturday..
He also explained quite a lot of stuffs regarding the op itself.. too much to go through everything.. some of the important things he said is that.. after the op.. don’t be alarmed that you’ll be in a different place… and I have to know that my teeth gonna be tied up.. cause to ensure the bones can recover back as fast as possible.. they have to tie my teeth to prevent any movements of my mouth..
After that.. he left.. and Jennifer and KaiLi came and visit me.. that’s one of the highlights of the day… hehe.. they came and visit me.. I’m very touched.. they really spent time with me.. and talk to me.. I’m really happy at that time.. but I find myself quite blur at that time.. cause I brought my sketch book to draw.. and when the doctor put the plug.. the doctor put it on my right hand.. then now I dare not draw using my right hand.. hehe.. kinda not get used to it..
After that.. it’s my dinner time.. that time is quite fun also.. Jennifer, KaiLi and Pui fed me.. hehe.. felt like a queen at that time.. hehe… felt quite paiseh also.. cause in that ward.. I’m the only young patient around.. the rest are all grandma’s… then I they insist to feed me.. hehe.. ;)
After dinner.. I went downstairs with my parents, Pui, Jennifer and KaiLi go eat dinner.. we went to the foodcourt downstairs to eat.. thinking of that.. I quite regretted.. cause I didn’t eat much at that time lei.. cause that time I not hungry.. and somemore I got no mood to eat more.. I should have ate.. now I cannot eat.. sob sob…
Anyway.. after dinner.. KaiLi and Jennifer left.. really happy that they stayed with me for so long.. hehe..
After that.. my parents and Pui accompany me back to the ward.. then they stayed there till 9 plus like that.. when they are leaving.. I couldn’t take it anymore.. I cried.. cause I gonna miss them.. I missing home already.. I thought to myself,” you are already a big girl le.. should learn to be independent.. don’t cry la.. I thought you say you are treating this as a chalet?? Still cry?? See!! Pui Pui crying now also because of you……… “
Anyway.. that night, I couldn’t get to sleep… many things keep flashing in my mind.. couldn’t remember what things already.. it’s too much.. I only slept for 4 hours that day.. they rest of the time I spent waiting for the time to pass by.. I was very scared that I need to stay for hospital for another two weeks… even after 12 am.. I was thirsty.. I dare not drink.. at most is just a small sip.. hehe.. I can’t imagine the life I’m going to have by staying at the hospital for TWO WEEKS!!!
At night.. I keep walking about and do a lot of things.. read Bible, go toilet, and a lot of stuff la.. trying to let the time pass by faster.. felt abit lonely at that time.. but I know God’s with me.. He’s there to comfort me.. thank God for that.. cause without Him.. I don’t think I have the courage to go for this op…
Day 2 (Friday)
After a long wait.. they sky’s getting brighter.. the day has come.. this is the day!! My parents and Pui came very early.. about 7 plus like that.. and Pui left at 8 like that.. cause she need to go to Ngee Ann for some event.. I gonna miss her.. I cried again.. hehe.. then she cried also and said,” see la.. see me cried also.. I going out one lei.. ”
After that, she left.. about 8:30am like that I was asked to changed to the op clothes.. (don’t know what’s that called.. hehe) after that about some time later about 9 like that.. I the op bed is being pushed in… I got to go.. I went to that bed.. looking at the ceiling.. quite scared.. and quite sad.. I don’t know what will become of me few hours later.. as I was on the way to the op theatre.. the nurse that accompanied me said,” don’t be afraid.. it’s going to be alright..” at that moment.. I was not very afraid of the op.. I cried because I’m going to miss my parents……..
The trip to the op theatre is peaceful.. is quiet.. my mind is blank at that time.. as the bed is being push towards the theatre… I can only see the lights on the ceiling just flash by.. one by one.. after that … I reached a door.. I was being pushed in.. this place is very big.. very spacious… the room is not much decorated… the surrounding make me feel like I’m in a big kitchen like that… a lot of people wore special clothes.. checking through different notes and files.. there is one of them ask for my name, I.C.. and what op I’m going to go through.. hehe.. then after about 10 mins.. I was further being pushed to another place.. I was out of that room.. I came into a corridor.. then I was being pushed into one of the orange doors.. this is a small room.. I think couldn’t even have space to put another bed that I ‘m on.. I could only see a very big spot light above me.. It’s not the usual lights that we see in cartoons and drama series.. it’s just a big round, white spot light at the ceiling.. on my left.. there is a blue cabinet… there is few people doing some admin job there… then I waited there.. then Dr Yong came.. he also dressed like one of them.. all light blue.. the hair and face covered.. he came and talk to me.. he assured me that it’s not going to be pain.. when I wake up.. everything’s over… after that.. a few doctors came also.. one of them is Dr Peck.. the one’s in charge of my case.. he took some last measurements.. making sure that everything is alright.. then another Caucasian doctor came also can’t really see him.. cause I was not wearing specs at that time.. could only see that he’s very young.. think should be in his 20’s .. quite handsome.. hehe..
After that.. I’m in another room.. this room think is about 4 times bigger than the last one.. this is very well lighted.. light blue colour.. got those very high tech feeling.. could hear the machines keep going “beep, beep” and the big spot light that we usually see is here.. there is 3 of them.. then a lot of people crowded around me.. felt so special at that time.. got soooo many people so serious over me.. hehe.. after that someone asked me for my weight.. think is regarding how much they need to put me to sleep ba.. then I don’t know from where came a auntie.. she any how tied my hair.. she used rubber bands to tie my hair you know?? Ouch!
After that … that auntie put some chemicals into my nose.. felt terrible.. the chemicals when into my throat.. can feel my throat went numb.. I keep coughing and coughing… after that I was being given oxygen mask.. oxygen doesn’t smell different lei.. to me… still smell the same.. as I was breathing through the oxygen mask.. that auntie.. (again) put a needle into my right hand ( where the plug is ) just felt that something big keep on pushing through my veins.. a bit pain at that time… after sometime.. felt that my head got some pressures.. and felt my breathing went deeper.. and faster.. my eyes blurred further… after that.. I couldn’t hear much.. only felt that the auntie still inserting the chemical into my vein… after that.. the pressure in my brain sometime increase.. sometime decrease.. after that.. I don’t know what happened next… only remembered when I woke up.. the environment is totally different.. the place is orange in colour.. a small corner.. saw a empty blood packet hanging somewhere near.. I think I went back to sleep a few times.. after that.. when I was more awake.. someone push me out of the room… I saw my dad!! I was so happy.. I’m alright!! Praise the Lord!!
I was being push back to the ward.. I saw a clock.. that time was about 4.45pm.. after that.. next thing I know is that I’m in the ward already.. couldn’t see clearly at all.. felt very drowsy.. I saw bro Valour.. he came and visit me.. saw Pui also.. I can’t remembered what happened that day.. I only could hear vividly.. could hear that bro Valour said that he’s going to leave at 7.. then after that heard him say he’s going to leave at 8.. I’m not very sure what happened.. just a few flashes here and there.. could remember Pui talk to bro Valour at that time…
At night.. I was more awake.. I was given a board to write whatever I want to say.. remember that place is air-con.. 6 bedded also.. my right arm has a stripe that measure blood pressure. And it was being put throughout the whole night.. my finger was being put a clip.. donno what’s that for.. couldn’t move as much that night.. I was given a equipment.. those dentist used to suck the water out of the mouth one..
throughout the night.. could remember there was many times the nurse press some machine that is on my right.. then the machine will count my blood pressure.. remember there’s once a nurse came at took some blood out of my left hand.. she say is for blood test.. then there’s twice someone came and put antibiotics on my left hand.. then after that.. there was once .. someone injected something like painkillers on my left hand.. remember after that.. I got some breathing difficulty.. then I vomited.. imagine you vomit with your mouth closed.. everything is stuck in your own mouth.. you donno how to swallow and how to spit out.. felt super terrible.. after that.. I just went through the night like this.. I woke up.. I thought it was already 6am in the morning.. but I waited and waited.. the sky is still as dark.. I could not see clock.. I’m not wearing specs.. I don’t know the time.. donno how long I waited… the sky got brighter finally…
Day 3 (Saturday)
This day.. early in the morning think should be around 7 plus like that ba.. Dr Peck, Dr Yong came and visit me… the first thought is that.. they live in the hospital one is it?? So early can reach hospital.. they looked at me.. and Dr Peck keep saying.. it’s very nice.. very good.. then he smiled at me and said.. later going to take the vacuum out from you.. you’ll feel better and later you can take a look at yourself…
After that Dr Yong added that he’s going to help me clean my mouth when I go to the clinic about 9 plus later…then they all left…
After that.. Pui and my dad came… after some time my dad said he’s going to work.. and he left.. Pui stayed with me throughout.. she said mum will be coming later.. she’s bringing Hei Hei (rabbit) to see doctor.. Pui saw many doctors came into the room and check on different patients.. then she commented that my doctor didn’t come.. so lazy.. then I wrote to her that he came before .. he’s the earliest.. hehe.. wah.. so proud my doctor at that time..
After that.. one female doctor came.. and she ask me to walk about.. she wants me to exercise.. she said she’s a physiologist (Wu Li Zhi Liao Shi) she say she doesn’t want me to stay on bed.. she teach me how to get up from bed and I stood up.. felt giddy at that time.. cause I heard from doctor I don’t have enough blood in me.. the blood count only got 9 point something.. very little… quite dangerous also.. after sometime.. I changed into a new set of clothes.. then was being pushed to a clinic some distance away.. I couldn't see clearly.. Pui was with me at that time… I waited outside the clinic.. after that.. I saw Dr Yong there.. he clean my mouth and teach me how to drink.. and he did an X-ray… after the clinic.. felt slightly better .. though I’m still a bit giddy.. Dr Yong said I must drink as much as possible.. so that I can recover faster..
After that I went back to the ward.. after about 12 plus ba… Bro Valour, Ling Ling, Jeremy came… Ling Ling gave me cookies.. haha.. looking forward to eat it.. hehe.. I’m really happy that they made an effort to come all the way here to visit me.. hehe… that time.. I feel quite sad.. as they can go for service.. can enjoy.. then I cannot.. I need to stay back here.. hai~~ so sad.. anyway.. I change to normal ward at around 3 like that.. and my mum accompany me… after that Shuen and Wei Liang came.. Shuen gave me flowers.. this is the first time someone gave me flowers wor.. real flowers some more.. I like it a lot.. she said that she know I like pink.. then the flowers is wrapped in pink also.. hehe..
She gave me famous amos cookies .. (how come people like to give cookie nowadays.. strange.. ) and she also gave me 2 magazines… hehe…really nice of her.. I like it a lot.. read through it again and again..
Can see that she’s sad when she saw me like this.. I can understand how she feels.. hehe.. really very touched to know friends who really cared about me.. after that.. about evening time ba.. they left..
Then after that.. my mum stayed with me.. till 10 plus.. I’m really touched that my mum stayed until so late.. just to accompany me.. and my dad came to find me at 10.. I’m really glad that I got so many people that really cared for me.. I felt that I’m really blessed.. really must thank God for that..
Hai~~ I wonder how was the service.. think that the service just ended.. I really want to go… miss church….. …. I want to go…. But… hai~~~…
Day 4 (Sunday)
About 7am like that.. Dr Yong came visit me… he’s so early again.. hehe.. he asked me about my condition.. whether I have any breathing difficulties and whether I can drink well or not.. he told me Dr Peck will come and see me later.. if he see that I’m alright.. I can go home~!
This is one of the greatest news I heard.. I want to go home!!
After that.. my dad came.. then I told him the good news… can see that he’s very happy also.. after that.. Dr Peck came and looked at me.. then after a short conversation.. he allow me to go home.. about 8 plus.. I was so eager to go home.. I changed back to my own clothes and get ready to go home… but I still need to wait for my mum to finish her service then can come and fetch me up.. my dad will be going for work.. but before my dad left.. I suddenly feel like vomit.. then this feeling sustained for quite some time.. then my dad approached the nurse.. the nurse said that if the problem still persist later.. she think that it’s advisable for me to stay for another day..
No way that’s going to happen man!! No~! I’m not staying here… that time I really panicked.. I really don’t want to stay here.. I prayed to God almost immediately for a speedy recovery.. and true enough.. God’s faithful.. He answered my prayers.. after 10 mins like that.. the feeling died down slowly.. yeah~~~ nothing can stop me now..
Sitting down there and wait to go home.. time pass by super slow… slower than anyone can imagine.. ……
I keep looking at the door of the ward.. then finally.. I saw someone familiar looking.. Yeah~! I can go home~! My mum and my aunt’s here.. they came and help me do the papers for the discharge and accompany me to go to pharmacy to get the medicine..
I feel that.. it’s really a blessing to be able to talk.. able to open the mouth… to eat.. to drink.. and do a lot of things… cause on the way to pharmacy.. the pharmacy is just a few steps away.. I told them by pointing the pharmacy to them.. then they don’t believe me and said that there is more pharmacy elsewhere.. that’s not the one.. then we end up walked one big round.. then go back to the same place… felt quite agitated at that time.. why she don’t believe me? (I really don’t want to waste time exercising here.. I want to go home… I’m very eager to go home… )
That whole day.. my temper is a little hot.. maybe it’s because I need to adjust my life.. I need to learn a new way of communicating.. or maybe it’s because I’m just tired.. tired of many things.. stay in hospital.. not seeing my friends.. church.. everything.. I think I’m really tired.. .. so tired… I want to take a break…
Finally.. I reached home.. I think I’m really tired.. I slept almost the whole day…but at night.. I couldn’t get to sleep.. got a little breathing difficulty.. I want to open my mouth.. this is so uncomfortable…
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