I cried
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
these few days i've been thinking alot about many things.. don't know why.. suddenly i felt i have heartache.. i found a broken heart in me.. i'm now listening to planet shakers' song.. suddenly felt like cryin.. ... ... how i wish i will leave this bottom of the valley soon... real soon...
"I love You, all of my hope is in You, Jesus Christ, take my life, take all of of me...."
i think without Him, i don't know what am i going to do.. i think i'll just breakdown. I love church.. many people don't understand the reason why i am always so busy with church stuffs.. even my mum don't understand..
it's because in church, i will always find peace.. i will always be recharged. even if things are so bad in front of me.. it's only in the presence of God, i can find the energy to move on. it's in the house of God that i will find true love, an unconditional love. it's in this very house of God, i'll find someone that really understands me and loves me as who i'm.
nobody is perfect in this world, that includes me. everyone surely have some flaws in their character. but we really need to know this, if not, we'll constantly live a life of bitterness.. instead of living a life of bitterness and constantly dwell in the past, why not live a life more meaningful life, to grow together and help each other to be a better person each day?
though it sounds easy, but there are not many can do it. for me.. i'm still working towards it. i know God will lead me through.
i find that Bible is really a very wonderful book. in the Bible, i learnt to be a better person. many years ago, when i'm still unsaved, i'm a very imatured person. i couldn't say i'm very matured now, but i know that all these years, i've grown.
the house of God is really a very special place. you wouldn't know what's like inside unless you come in the experience it first hand. you can't stay outside of the house of God and try to peep to the inside. you need to come in. i did it many years ago, and i never regret it since then.
in the house of God, broken hearts can be mended and be made whole. in the house of God, hope can be found. in the house of God, i'm free, really felt so free. i will not feel a pressure within me. in the house of God, i'm satisfied.
every week, i will really look forward for weekends. i felt like a child always looking forward for her parent bring her to McDonald's. haha.. every weekend, i'll be able to dwell in the house of God. besides that, i can find people who loves me as who i'm, people who loves God, people who never put you down.
i will never want to leave this wonderful place. i found the best place that i want to be. even if the whole world persecute me, i'll still choose to come to the house of God.
suddenly felt there's strength for me to move on. felt that my heart is slowly coming back into one piece. felt that i can face the challenges in front of me. cause i know, God will always be with me and consistantly watching over me... :) He will definately guide me through this valley.
" So i throw my life upon all that You are, cause i know You gave it all for me. and when all else fades my soul will dance, with You, where the love that last forever..."
&lovin' Bb at 11:10 AM♥
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