i don't understand
Sunday, March 27, 2005
I’m tired, really tired. Tired of all these nonsense every time I get home. Tired of looking at those angry faces. Tired. Felt like just leaving everything and don’t come back. Why my parents don’t understand me? Or I should say I don’t understand them? My dad doesn’t understand me, it’s okay, never mind, I understand, he’s still not saved. What about my mum? She’s a Christian, why she don’t understand me? I’m having late nights cause I want to serve God and I want to work. I don’t want myself to be a big burden for them. So I want to work. I don’t want to ask them for more money. I understand they also have their difficulties.
Everytime when I’m in need of money, I don’t want to approach my parents, unless it’s really necessary, I really don’t want to approach them, especially my dad, he just don’t like the things that I do. He always says that I’ll only approach him when I’m in need of him, and nothing else. Whatever I do, he’s always not happy about it. Felt like I really coming into a dead end. Felt like really have no place to go. Don’t feel like I’m at home, I really drag to go home everytime when I reach home late.
To be honest, everytime when I get back home late, felt that no one welcomes me with open arms, what welcomes me is coldness, angry faces, nothing pleasant. But at least I have a wonderful sister like Pui, who’ll always be there to stand by me, who’ll always fight with me. Can’t imagine a life without her. Hee.. think it’ll be terrible.
&lovin' Bb at 8:20 PM♥