i'm in love
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
18 jan 2:15pm:
i'm in love, once again. with God. last few weekd, been quite dry in the spirit. been using my own strength to do things, to run on with my life. things doesn't seems to have a breakthrough. felt kinda frustrated with things, with myself, with God.
many times, really want to give up. really want to ..
this thinking been dwelling in my mind these past few weeks. been running on cause i don't want to lose the things that i have now. i know that if i give up, i'll regret forever. but it's only due to this negative feeling that i still hang on till now.
many times i cried out to God, asking for a breakthrough. things doesn't seems to improve. sometimes, there's a voice keep telling me that there is no God. but i know that in my heart, i know that this is definately not true.. but how come sometimes i'm affected by that statement?
but yesterday, it's really a turning point in my life. went for prayer meeting yesterday. been very blessed by all the prayer meeting i had over there. the presence of God was so strong.
yesterday, we prayed together as usual. pastor mentioned that today's prayer meeting will end earlier cause he need to talk to some of the leaders after the meeting.
so i didn't think much about it.. but little did i know that God has prepared something from me. he gave me a special gift, straight from heaven.
we're praying, as usual, then after a short prayer, we went back to worship. then pastor start to pray for all the people that are in the room.. the presence of God was so strong.. i was really ministered..
after so long, really felt a breakthrough in my spirit. that day, i felt the Lord telling me that,'I'm always here with you. I know your anxieties, I know your weakness. but I'm always with you. I will never leave you. I want to assure you that I'm real, I'm here to bless you. I'll never leave you alone...'
really felt His presence was so strong that day. felt His anointing just came and filled my whole being. felt like heaven's door was wide open for me. felt that i was not left out.. i am really somebody in the body of Christ.
after the whole prayer meeting, i was really refreshed and charged up.. really very happy that i came..
&lovin' Bb at 8:20 PM♥