Disappointments..
Sunday, July 09, 2006
our cg have prayer meeting this week.. during worship time.. felt that God want to speak to us regarding disapointments.. and after the prayer meeting.. bro valor tell us that the cg sermon is about handling disapointments! cool..
but during worship time.. so many things just came rushing in.. times of me feeling good and bad.. times when i felt so happy when i do something correctly.. times when i felt so ashamed of myself when i did something wrong.. times when i was confused of how people change in times.. times things does not turn out what i thought it's supposed to be..
so many things on my mind.. times when i get disappointed with events, with people, with myself, and sometimes even with God..
but looking back.. all these disappointments are only an indication that i did not trust God enough.. after all the disappointments, God pull through for me again and again.. God definately will step in and rescue you in times of need..
but to me.. many times.. i will get disappointed at myself easily.. especially when i couldn't fulfill the things that i'm supposed to do.. hmm.. at least i can't even reach my own expectations.. no need to think of how others think about me.. i sometimes will get real angry with myself..'why i can't just do better? week by week the same thing happen again and again.. .. what's wrong with me.. ' sometimes i'll scold myself.. i .. simply got real disappointed with myself..
but God really encouraged me during cell group.. hmm.. remembered those times when i was a younger christian.. my life my was different.. looking back.. God really changed my life.. i know that what i go through today... one day in the future.. i'll look back to this day.. i know that i'll be happy that i chose to hang on to God's promises and continue to move on with Him.. even if life is getting tougher.. i know that someday in future.. i'll be happy of myself.. on what i did today..
thinking about this.. felt that i have strength to move on further.. to take on another day of challenges for Him.
sometimes.. things really does not turn out what we wanted to be.. life is not so perfect after all.. but how are we going to face this imperfect life? get bitter and complain or choose to face the fact and deal with whatever that is within our ability?
many will choose the shorter and easier way out..
when times are getting real tough.. times when you really want to give up.. when you want to leave everything aside and don't care about everything.. this is the time that you tell yourself to pull through.. to continue to pull yourself back together.. even if you felt that you have already in a dead end.. even if you felt that you have no where to go.. continue to hang on.. staying there at least is better than giving up..
when times where people, events, and even yourself disappoint you. really encourage you to stop getting bitter and move on.. dwelling in the past will not do you any better.. you'll only hurt yourself further and deeper..
even in times things seems impossible.. meditate yourself in the Word of God.. God will never lie.. whatever He said is always true.. continue to bite on His promises and move on.. run towards Him!!
one thing is being disappointed.. another thing is to keep dwelling in that disappointment... i don't want to continue to hang on all these disappointments.. God.. i leave all my disappointments unto Your hands.. You know how i felt.. You know what i go through.. teach me Your ways oh Lord.. Lord.. from here till the day i fulfil my destiny.. teach me how to get there..
i've seen so many people chose to leave this race.. i don't want to be like them.. i want to run to the end.. teach me to be a better disciple of You..
&lovin' Bb at 12:38 AM♥
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