stress out~ blank out~
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
these few days.. working is really getting more and more stressful..been learning how to do dispatching.. really v stress.. firstly, i'll be taking care of north district.. and north is one of the biggest district... in terms of area, it's actually the biggest.. and i also taking xes board.. so i'm taking two boards in total. oh man.. it's really stressful to do dispatching.
today morning i went to work as per normal. joey ask me whether i want to take alone today. but after that we decided that i train for one more day..
today as usual.. very high calls.. highest calls at one time is more than 32.. imagine you got 32 outstanding calls waiting for you to dispatch. you need to understand which engineer is trained in which product, which area they are.. and you also need to make sure you respond the call within a certain period of time... make sure that you will not be wrong in admin...
today many times i really blank out.. suddenly forgot totally what i want to do.. my trainer, joey was asking me many times how come i suddenly stop doing everything.. i really blank out..
during lunch i really cannot take it le.. went out and walk walk to buy food with casandra.. having headache already..
after lunch continue to jia you.. all the way till 6.. joey help me take call from 5.30 to 6.. so that i can dispatch next day's call.. during that time.. really blank out even more freq.. really don't know who to dispatch.. and which call to dispatch..
after work.. went to meet bro valor, jeremy and kel at suntec.. cause got leader's meeting later. really totally blank out.. headache getting from bad to worse.. even thinking of what to talk gives me headache..
went to sky garden.. that time really cannot take it le.. if i'm there alone sure will cry like crazy.. after that kel suggest go arcade there play game.. it's fun.. during playing.. kinda forget about it.. but after playing.. reality hits back.. by the time go up to church office.. headache came back.. but is much lesser.. but still can ta han la.. so continue to hang on loh.. what to do..
after that travel back home.. i get myself to sleep all the way to woodlands.. don't want to keep myself awake.. later i think too much again..
walking back to home really is a blank out trip.. my mind is really tired.. really really tired.. want to give my brain a rest.. headache getting from bad to worse again.. oh man..
after that when get home still need to complete the cg outing planning.. really couldn't think at all.. headache pain till wanna bang wall that kind.. never tried that before in my whole life man.. thank God for pui man.. she really helped me alot.. if not i sure can't think of any de..
sitting there in front of computer screen whole day is really a torture.. but when you sit down there.. blank out.. don't know what to do.. is even worse..
now the planning is almost done.. still need to finish up some typing.. really dying soon.. can't go sleep yet.. sian.. tomorrow sure no time to type the planning de.. only can do now.. headache is killing me sia.. really no time and no mood to joke.. and on msn i was being asked alot of questions.. cannot take it le la.. headache is really killing me.. but need to complete what i need to do..
never tried cg outing planning can plan till cry de.. think i really too stressed out le la.. tomorrow will be a better day.. (i hope) oh man.. don't know i can be this state for how long.. not sure whether i can really cope with the stress level for my work not... but if i don't learn to cope now.. next time i still need to cope the same stress level in other jobs.. just hang on loh.. what to do.. hai~~ how long will this be sia.. cannot take it le.. feel so alone.. oh God... gimme the strength to pull through.. i can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me!! i believe it.. declare by faith.. really by faith... hai~
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