breaking down the wall
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Today I went for sat duty again. Today I am taking 3 boards for dispatch. Usually sat we only take 2 boards each, but today I’m taking 3. Initially want to clear all the IB that is still pending, but now I can’t clear at all. Simply no time.
Thank God that north board have not much calls. By the way.. Lulu told me today that I’m permanently taking north board. Stress. Still got so many things I not very sure about. Like T&M, taking out time for engineers… etc..
Oh man..
But at least I no need to take much CA calls. I don’t really like to take invoice enquires. I don’t like. So many things I need to take note. And talking to customers for very long time.
I prefer taking service calls, it’s faster and easier.
Today me, cas and nuraini taking sat duty. It’s really nice. Haha.. Really enjoyed it. But lulu came in at around 9plus.. -_-
Then can’t really talk much. But it’s nice to work with them.
Left office at around 1pm today. Talked to lulu. She really can talk sia.. So naggy.. Opps.. She told us about what she do, need to do a lot of planning, meetings, etc.
Can’t go for choir prac again.
Anyway today’s svc was really good. Presence of God is really strong. I was really ministered. Pastor talked about Shamgar. Throughout the sermon, many things been running in my mind. There are so many things that I want to do. Really want to take a step of faith to try out, but many times I choose to tell myself to delay the plans.
But I want to be like Shamgar, to be someone that will not wait for the perfect timing. Someone that has a willing heart to do the best that he can, to accomplish what God called him to do.
I believe that year 2007 will be a better year for me. 21 years old. From adolescence to adulthood. I believe that year 2007 will be a changing point in my life. As I can foresee that there will be many changes in my life next year.
Ok, back to the service, after the sermon, really felt God speaking to be in one area in my life. Not convenient to share here. Really want to have breakthrough in this area. Seems like there is a wall I need to overcome it. But through time, this wall has already become a part of me, it’s difficult to separate and discard it. To many people, this seems to be a small and insignificant issue. But to me, this is one of the greatest obstacles I’m facing now. No one can help except God. Really need to renew my mind in this area. Wherever I go, this issue has been bugging me. Sometimes it’s really difficult to concentrate to do other things.
But been trying for so many times these two weeks, been praying about this also, asking God for breakthrough. But nothing seems to happen. There are no improvements. The wall is still stuck there, couldn’t even find where is the starting point.
I believe that God will somehow will help me. Really want to solve this problem. Been there for years, I didn’t know about this issue at all. But only till recently it really surfaces and I couldn’t delay anymore. Felt that I really need to break this wall before I can move on to do more things.
Oh God, really need breakthrough. Really want to learn to trust You more. Really want to be someone that is truly free. Lord, be my Shepherd, continue to teach me, guide me, lead me. I don’t want to waste my life. I want to make it count. I want to live a life that will impact others. Someone that will make a difference and to shine.
&lovin' Bb at 11:45 PM♥
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