Living for a new tomorrow.

Father God, how great is Your love?

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Walking back home just now, quite a lot of things been on my mind recently. Kind of tired to think about them. So many things I want to do. But lack of time, lack of ability, lack of capacity, lack of energy..

Listening to my ipod, listening to worship song as usual. I made a longer way back. Want to have some time to really pour out my heart to God.

Sometimes looking at myself, looking at my life, there are so my faults, short-comings. So many things I want to do well, but I always couldn’t achieve what I expected myself to be. So many times, so many times, I really want to give up. But I thank God that I still have something that I can hold on to when every time I felt like giving up. Thank God that I did not. Thank God that I’m still in this race. Thank God that I’m still here, talking to Him.

As I’m approaching the lift, listening to ‘So you would come’ again. It’s always one of my favorite song. Not just a song that has nice melody, but it’s really a song that speak of my heart, my life.

Before I met the Lord, everything is without vision, without purpose. I don’t know who and what I’m living for every single day. Although I look happy, but is that the true happiness that I’ve found?

One day, I met God. My life changed. now I know what it means to be happy, to be able to smile from the inside of my being. To be able to tell myself that if I were to leave this world today, I will leave as a happy person.

Although many challenges arises, many difficulties to overcome, many walls to break, but I am happy. I know that God will always be there for me.

But a little girl like me, how much strength do I have? How many walls I can break? How many difficulties that I can overcome? I don’t know when will be the time when I say, ‘it’s too hard.. Too hard..’

I have forgotten. Forgotten that besides this little girl, her Father will always be with her. Her Father will always watch over her. Times when this little girl falls, the Father sees, the Father picks her up and into His arms. Times when this little girl cries, the Father will be there to comfort her. Times when this little girl comes wounded, the Father will come and heal her from all her injuries and make her life whole.

No matter what that little girl did, her Father’s love for her will always be the same. The unconditional love of the Father.

One day this little girl come to her Father, broken, wounded, tired. Feeling guilty, feeling weak, feeling ashamed. Step by step, she walk towards her Father. Her Father asked her, ‘what do you have in your hands?’

The little girl replied, ‘nothing, I have nothing to give. You have everything in the world. What can I offer to you that will bless you?’ feeling guilty and ashamed, the little girl step a few steps back.

Her Father looked at her for a moment, and He speak softly, ‘yes, there is. You have so many things that you can give me.’

The little girl thought for a while, and she said, ‘Daddy, I have nothing. My life is all in a mess, there are so many flaws in my life. You know it. You know there are so many times when I broke down and cry. You are with me when I couldn’t finish what you want me to do. There are countless times that I have disappoint you. What can I offer? I tried. I tried to be a really good girl. I tried to find ways to make you proud. But it never worked. I know that I could never be a good little girl in Your eyes, it’s so difficult. It’s so hard..’

The little girl steps back some more. Feeling like the whole world is going fall into pieces, the little girl starts to cry…

Her Father is full of compassion, He came close to her. Speak softly once again, ‘I’m proud of you, there is no need for you to work so hard to make me happy. My love for you will always be the same. No matter how many times you’ve failed, My love for you is able to give you strength to stand up again. No matter how many times you felt that you’ve disappoint me, My love for you are able to clear the doubts in your heart. No matter how many times you walked away from me, My love for you is more than sufficient to go all the way to be there for you, to always be on your side.

To me, you are the greatest treasure in My heart. I have created you. I thought of you even before the world being made known. every time when you rejoices, I cheered with you. every time when you cried, I am there to comfort you. every time when you felt alone, I am always be there on your side.

Little girl, come back to Me. Give me your wounds, give me your hurts, give me your worries. I have already prepared everything for you. I have sent Jesus to die in your place. Put your wounds, your hurts, your worries on the cross. There is no need for you to do anything to compensate. I have long forgotten all your transgressions.

Little girl, maybe you see you have nothing to give, maybe you felt that your life torn and tattered. Or maybe you felt that you does not have any abilities in your hands to do great things for me. Trust me, lean on me, seek refuge in me. I will make your life whole. Through you, I will do great and mighty exploits. I have great future all planned out for you. It is way beyond what you can comprehend right now. Are you willing to go on an adventure with me?’

The Father stretched out His hands towards the girl, giving her an invitation to a life led by Him.

The little girl looked at her hands, standing in awe. ‘what did I have that made you love me so much? I felt that I’m not worthy of this love You have for me. I disappoint you so many times, you still choose to forgive me, you still choose to love me. How great is your love.’ she said.

Daddy God, thank you for telling me that you really love me so much. Thank you that I have nothing to offer you, you gave me everything. Thank you for everything. I am amazed that your love is never changing. I am secure in you. I can have strength in you. I am able to overcome mountains with you. I can do great things for you. I am a giant in your kingdom. I can be someone that you desire me to be.

I want to live a life, led by you, all the days of my life. Lord, I’d pray that you continue to guide my path. You know my flaws, you know my weakness, you know there are many parts of my life that is broken, make it whole O God.

&lovin' Bb at 1:02 AM♥

nonsense.