Reason for being a Christian
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Today’s service was really awesome! The presence of God is strong! Felt really refreshed after the service.
During worship, 2nd worship song, felt God speaking to me. Suddenly reminded of a scene: a little child get home after school, having her result slip on her hand. She worked hard, she plowed through countless nights. But she was not happy, she is afraid that her dad will not be happy with her results. She is afraid as she felt that her dad is a strict and stern man, she knows her dad does things in great efficiency. She would want to be like him one day. The way back home is heavy, what awaits her after she hands the result slip over to her dad? She don’t want to see those frowns again.
Felt God telling me, ‘I don’t require you to accomplish all these things to make me happy. Reason that I have called you, is not that you can contribute in the Kingdom, is not that you can do things for me. That’s not the reason for you existence. Even if you didn’t perform up to your own expectation, don’t need to be afraid, try again. I will always be here to help you and guide your paths. The reason of your existence, the reason why I have called you, is to love me. That’s all I ask. Love me, beloved, love me…’
Really wept at that time. So many times I am just like Martha, busy with many things in life. There’s so many goals need to accomplish, so many targets, so many deadlines… and tend to forget why I’m called to be a Christian in the first place. Is important that I should serve God, is important that I should accomplish and fulfill all the commitments on my hands. But the main reason for me to be breathing on this earth is to love God, love Him with all my heart.
But sometimes when I’m in need, I will ask God, ‘bless me, bless me…’ God is a good God. He does blesses my life with abundance. He is a God that never lie, whatever He promised, He fulfilled. But sometimes I will think whether I am serving God because of what He can do for me, to fulfill all the desires, concerns of the world or whether I am serving God because I love Him?
Today God reminded me, to love Him with all my heart. Love Him not because of what He can do for me. Even if He never blesses, I will still choose to love Him. Lord, I'm hungry for You. I don't want to be like Martha, busy serving and at the end of the day, no more appetite for You. I want to be like Mary, to be sitting at Your feet when You come by, to be there listening to Your voice, to enjoy Your presence.
Jesus, I love you.
&lovin' Bb at 1:41 AM♥
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