Spiritual Journey with God this weekend
Monday, May 28, 2007
These few days been a wonder spiritual journey for me.
Been reading on the book named, ‘The heavenly man’. I simply fell in love with this book. It touched my heart. Yun, the main character of the book, really have great love for God. His faith endures the end despite all the cruel persecutions he faced. Many parts of the book, I really felt challenged. Sometimes make me think, if I am in the same situation as Yun, will I stand up for Jesus still or I will choose to compromise? Is my faith for God so strong that I will still stand strong for Him when great persecutions like this comes?
It’s always easy to say, ‘Lord, Lord, I will definitely follow You till the end.’ but how many will actually to live out that promise when the knife of persecution is up to your neck?
During Friday cell group, I felt a deep impression in my heart about this topic - persecution. It’s been a long time since I last shared publicly in the cell group. So struggled to whether to share this word or not. This is the bad thing of not sharing for long period of time. You will lose confidence in sharing publicly and you will take longer time to tune into God.
Felt God impressed me two chapters, 2 Tim 3 and Psalms 34.
Felt that although persecution may arises, God will be our stronghold. He will continue to show that He will be faithful to us till the end. He will rise up against our enemies. Didn’t felt that this word apply to all the cell group members. Felt that this only applies to at most 3 of them. But I didn’t say the specific numbers.
Also felt that God really wants to pour forth and manifest His presence and power over our lives. But felt that some of them are having difficulties experiencing this. It seems like a wall surrounding him/her, nothing can come out, nothing can go in. Felt that God wants to break this thick wall, so that His love can pour into the brim once again…
I really struggled in whether to share this or not, it is really a very different ‘topic’ as the rest of the cg members. Struggled to share also because I not sure whether is this really what God wants to share.
But I still do it by faith anyway…
After the cg, God reminded me of China. It’s been a long time since I was last reminded. So many things happened this past few months. I almost forget about this and place it aside. I want to start to study Chinese once again. I want to learn how to preach in Chinese, pray in Chinese.
On Saturday, the sermon was about ‘peace and persecution’. I was totally shocked. The section about persecution, is so similar to what I knew the day before. Psalms 34 is about David being persecuted. He act crazy in the midst of all the troubles. He still choose to praise God despite all. And God preserves him, God protected him. Pastor talked about Paul in the sermon. Paul was in prison, in captivity. Despite all the torture, he was physically wounded. But his faith is still strong, he still choose to praise God despite all the sufferings he had received.
Today, went to service too. God impresses me about China even more clearly. He reminded me the times I had encounters with Him when I’m in China, when I’m the Hotel room, when I’m prayer walking. Heaven is open there, Holy Spirit is so eager to show His glory over all the people in China. He called be back to China, to be a missionary for Him. I not sure when will this happen. But I felt that from now onwards, I need to start to prepare myself. So that when time comes, I’ll be ready to go.
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