Heartache. I want to be STRONG!
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Today rushed to do my online quiz. Did very badly. Only score 45/100. Need to buck up for my projects and final exam. I know I sure can write something to impress the marker. I can do it!
After that went to Bugis with Bb. Bb gave me more pressie, two very expensive shoes from Charles n Keith. I’m very touched. Bb is soooooo nice~~~ I really liked the present a lot! Last week Bb bought me items from Make Up Store and Esprit.
Throughout the trip today, we’re hogging to the PSP. Haha. we literally took turn to play. Wah, after giving Bb the PSP, feel like getting one for myself! Haha! we also had a very nice dinner. I brought Bb to visit my Dad’s workplace. Dad made a super sumptuous dinner for both of us; a gigantic steamed fish head, sweet n sour pork, stir fry vege with mushroom. Ooooooo.. I love it! then Bb bought turtle soup too. Wah, was super full after that.
Today went home with Dad after the outing. Seldom had chance to spend time to talk to him. Felt a lot throughout the trip. While talking, I looked at my Dad’s tired eyes, makes me remembered how busy he was just now. Bb and I stayed at the stall for more than 1 hour, and Dad didn’t have a chance to stop and have a rest. He was working as if having a war. I don’t think I can be like him if I were to be in the same situation. I think I will be just too tired to continue.
Then I looked at his hands, it’s full of rashes. Rashes are due to the hot oil that splattered onto his hands while he was working. Sob. My heart aches…
Then these few years he has been freq to see doctors. Sob.
While travelling back home, Dad said he really wish that he will retire soon. His body can’t take it much longer. Dad said that he’s willing to teach someone who is willing to take over his work.
I hold my Dad’s hand, suddenly realized that Dad is old. I knew it all the while; just that the reality didn’t impact me that much until I hold my Dad’s hand and took a close look. I really want to let Dad enjoy his retirement, which he will not be troubled over his finances. I really want to be able to provide more than enough for my parents. They have worked tirelessly for pui and I for so long, it’s time for them to enjoy life to the fullest!
When I got home, prayed for my Dad. I prayed that my Dad could be happy, able to enjoy life, healthy and strong. I also prayed that my Dad can be saved and experience God in a tangible way. It’s heartache to see Dad work till so hard and was so tired. Sob.
It’s really sad sometimes that how come I am not strong enough financially to be able to support my parents. Argh. One of my greatest wish is that I can be able to let them enjoy their retirement, together. I believe that it could come to pass. I know the Lord will provide more than enough, He will bless. :D
&lovin' Bb at 11:57 PM♥
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